Media Crisis

Pandemic, what a scary sounding word!

The only purpose of the news media is their obvious reporting that reveals an agenda; kill, steal, and destroy. Once again, my experience with chronic illness has allowed the Holy Spirit to continue using it to expose the demonic nature of the worldly system and use it for good. The corona virus news is completely irrational for both physical and spiritual reasons; revealing spiritual deception. It took 22+ years of being in bondage to our medical system to learn the very hard way that it has never been about healing,fixing, or wellness; if it was, I would not have lived over 26 years immune suppressed and currently disabled. However, the disappointment lead me to the cross; which was where it needed to begin. It took approximately 2 years for the medical community to even put a label on my illness, but it didn’t stop them from treating the symptoms. Once I was diagnosed, it also didn’t change the way they treated the symptoms because the root cause is irrelevant to actually correcting and repairing in a worldly system that blindly serves satan. On top of my diagnosis, being immune suppressed exposed me to a wide variety of sickness; virus, bacteria, parasites, and fungus; yet only testing for a specific virus (influenza) once in 2015, during the entire history. Accordingly they blindly treated the multiple illness’ with antibiotics on occasion, despite any evidence or proof of infection. Viral testing is not typical in the medical practice despite virus’ being very typical. This alone should speak volumes about the lack of willingness of the healthcare system to achieve answers. The customary practice is based on assumption/presumption that involve symptom resolution and not health. In fact, I have survived numerous virus’, including influenza-b, pneumonia, and shingles twice over the last 26 years with immune suppression. It was a medication that almost killed me; causing a-plastic anemia with a hemoglobin of 4.6. Not so ironically that medication was hydroxychloroquin, the medication they are testing to treat corona virus; which is a sulpha medication. There is far greater risk taking any medication; just read the drug profile warnings. It’s actually ironic all the names assigned to illness’ when at the core, the problems are based on similar biologic dysfunction that manifest differently in the body.

From the beginning of this viral conspiracy, my heavenly sensor was triggered deeply by all the inconsistency and the not so coincidental, even convenient, power play it was appearing to seek. The media keeps pushing the need for testing of the virus, however, testing for the corona virus or any other virus is completely irrelevant, because it doesn’t produce a solution; specifically the way it is treated. Labeling any illness is just a way to appear they can control it; built on lies and mind control. This becomes very apparent if you have ever had to deal with the medical system and doctors for any length of time. All men are flawed and prone to deception, including those that happen to study and receive a degree in any subject; including medicine. Studying flawed information only makes you an expert in deception. Our entire education system is nothing more than a system of intellectual idolatry when it is tested against scripture. The Bible is our tool for discernment and surviving all forms of deception. This world is untrustworthy and we have an epidemic of trusting idols which can only lead to destruction. We have a fear and idolatry pandemic and need to be more concerned with what is hidden spiritually; behind all the extreme focus! Do you discern deflection?

Our media reports hearsay which is unreliable information.

There is nothing rational about locking people away to hide from exposure to a specific microorganism among many. It reveals complete ignorance of the biologic system; which include virus’, bacteria, and parasites within the natural flora and completely disregards the immune system all together.

Sadly my favorite past time lately has been debunking all the media lies and the lies are plenty. The Bible teaches us to test spirits and there are demonic spirits evident to those involved in the content of the media. The media has a condition I would compare to ADHD and nearsighted in context. The focus exploits while eliminating far greater threats; vehicle collisions, aging, accidents, obesity, alcoholism, diabetes, opioids, and even iatrogenic death. The list is never ending in a proper perspective. The media perspective of the current corona virus crisis is an agenda based on presumption which is realistically unfounded. Spiritually and rationally this effort is completely blown out of proportion and leads to demonic spiritual fruits. We live by faith, not sight, and certainly not by worldly understanding. The purpose of the media is fear based and the corona virus is the current weapon of choice. Not only does the Bible warn numerous times of the source of fear being spiritually demonic but, in addition, there are physical repercussions, which impact the physical body that are harmful; causing hormone production, inflammation, confusion, and immune suppression. Fear is an assault to life physically that is perpetuated spiritually. The crisis is completely irrational when you actually analyze all the information available regarding this virus exposure. I’ve included the statistics from the World Health Organization so you can use your own mind about the truth.

Death Stats

The misunderstanding of virus’ and ignorance of the human body is apparent with the use of masks. Virus’ do not fly or remain suspended in the air. A virus is contracted by touching something that has the viral protein on it’s surface. After it is on your hand the protein is transmitted by touching your face,nose,eyes where it has access to travel by way of the lymphatic system via mucous to the lungs. There is a false understanding that you breathe in a respiratory virus. I suppose if somebody coughed in your face or was close enough when coughing, without covering their mouth, it could potentially be inhaled but it is unlikely. There is a reason why so much emphasis is placed on hand washing for prevention because hands and skin are the transmitters that the protein obtains access to mucous carriers within the bodies lymphatic system.

Further more, the statistics by the CDC have been continually manipulated to exploit this virus in an attempt to politicize and weaponize it.

Jesus Saves From all threats!

Romans 12:2 New International Version (NIV) Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

At the root of any physical crises is a spiritual manifestation. This world is the enemy and therefor our focus always needs to start much deeper, where the enemy operates. In order to know the enemy, we must be able to recognize spiritual fruits the Bible exposes in Galatians 5:19-25. The Bible truly is the best source and provides healing at the source. I believe all illness is rooted in deception, being disconnected from our Creator and treating the divine physical body as a temple. This world keeps us running in circles, chasing the next crises and cure, when stillness is where we find we already possess access to our own power and well being. You can’t focus on Christ and His truth when you are captivated by the media and world; which is the strategy of the demonic world. Seek the Kingdom of Heaven first! Spiritual discernment saves lives.

During difficult times I have been continually lead to the Word and quiet time with Christ. While the world screams of chaos, it presents an awareness of the spiritual ignorance that is the real threat. Understanding the spiritual process of sanctification and knowing Christ produces peace in the truth of scripture. As a result it becomes apparent the true identity of any conflict according to “fruits”. If people were inclined to turn off the TV and open their Bible to spend time with our Lord and Savior, we would not have a crisis. Reality is based on perception and it points to the source of our motivation.

The way we deal with uncertainty lets us know whether Jesus is ahead of us leading, or behind us just carrying our stuff. ~Bob Goff

Finally, I would like to add a source from Dr. John Bergman who is always thought provoking and provides diverse documentation with reliable information. I have been subscribing to his channel for several years now during my journey trying to recover my health after allopathic mismanagement of my illness. He has an ideal combination of spiritual wisdom combined with solid understanding of human anatomy and biology. I have found his material to effectively communicate complex issues with a gift for teaching. It is obvious his intent is to truly help people and challenge the unfortunate ways of the world.

Dr. John Bergman D.C. 4/12/2020

Diagnosis Witchcraft

God placed this amazing sermon in my path that so effectively brings to light the current spiritual blindness that is at epidemic proportions. The message is so needed and it is from over a year and a half prior to the most recent insanity. It also included a powerful prayer at the end that I wanted to have readily available. We need to be persistent in prayer during the evil days. Most churches are not addressing the spiritual application to relevant moments. Truly, nothing is new and there is so much to learn from Biblical history and discerning spiritual fruits. My mission is to try and reduce the spiritual blindness. I know God can create good in the midst of the darkness but we have to understand the battle on a deeper level if we have a prayer in this world.

Tim Sheets @ Oasis Church Sept. 5th 2018
Agree with this prayer as best as you can, let God hear your voice and commit yourself to be more than just those that agree now, but to commit yourself to make a difference. Commit yourself to pray for this nation like maybe you never have before; it certainly needs it.

Father I thank you that your word declares the truth sets us free. There’s so many word curses blasting through the airwaves, cursing this nation; the demon words. Lord add my voice to our voice, to those that are issuing a cry before you against the prophets of bale, against the demon prophecy is the prophets the word curse. Reverse them, reverse the word curses to come back and destroy the attack of hell, buying those curses in the name of Jesus. I bind those word curses off of individual lives in this group and bind it off of this house in Jesus name; you’re not permitted here, we bind it off this nation. Let the word curses reverse and destroy those who their curse. Pray for the strategies of hell to be exposed in increased ways; these princes of darkness, the spirits of darkness in the land that want to come against people’s lives and their children and to come against churches and the nation. We bind those strategies and command them to be exposed; expose them, expose them, tear the blanket off, rip it off. Show us that python spirit; we bind it in Jesus name, the strategies in every level of life, the strategies of darkness. We are those that are on alert for such a time as this; the plague of strategies against the people of God, against the heirs of God, against your leaders, against homes, against business. How many business’ have been destroyed by that constricting spirit, which destroys jobs and incomes. How many churches Lord, we bind it in Jesus name. May we be those Watchmen on the wall that are paying attention, that are declaring our faith. Destroy the attacks of hell at every level; of the state level, at the national level, local level, church level, every level! Activate the angelic princes of heaven to fight for us, to listen to these decrees of faith and begin to engage the enemy in a warfare that we win, we stand that we win, we declare right now we are gonna win this thing. Pray for our leaders Lord, to be strong, every word curse against them reverse them to those that did the cursing, may it be a prey in their own lives, do it seven fold as your word declares. Cause our leaders to be strong for values that honor You, honor your word on earth, honor the principles Lord that we are founded upon. We pray for wisdom Lord to be given to our leaders. You said Lord You give wisdom in the natural realm and in the spirit realm; it’s both, give spiritual wisdom, give natural wisdom, send confusion to the camp of the adversary, to deep hidden iniquity that’s entrenched in government, the deep state, so-called. We recognize that it’s hidden itself in the marketplace, also it is deeply embedded in education, it’s embedded in the seven mountains of the culture and sadly it’s embedded to some degree in the church. Destroy it, rip the band-aid off, expose the iniquity; destroy it, scatter it, and shatter it. We hear the voice of the Holy One. We hear the voice of the Prophet crying. Bind the witchcraft, bind it, go to war against it; stop it and bind jezabel! We rise in authority today and we bind jezebel, we bind to you, we bind you, we bind this murder spirit, the stealing conniving spirit, his word cursing spirit, we bind it in any of its influence against our families, our kids, our business’, our churches, our nation; we bind you in the name of Jesus Christ! Send destruction to Ahab and Jezebel, destroy their influence! In the name of Jesus, destroy it; come upon it Lord in aggressive ways. We bind Jezebel, we cleanse this house from it, we cleanse our house from it, we cleanse the national house from it. We say no we hear the prophets and we say no you are not permitted. The body of Christ will rise and we will make our stand. We are going to shift this nation and shift our covenant principles back into the right place and we’re gonna activate blessings and restoration, life abundant; which is our heritage in our right. We do it Lord because not only that we hear your prophets but we see your word. We hear what you said Lord, we hear what you said to the church. AMEN! ~Tim Sheets Oasis Church

Spiritual Clues

Fruits of Christmas

Ezekiel 14:3 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
Mortal, these men have taken their idols into their hearts, and placed their iniquity as a stumbling block before them; shall I let myself be consulted by them?

Besides for obvious evidence that can be found of Christmas being based on pagan practice, from as early as I can remember, it never resonated with my soul either. I never experienced the “fruits” of the Holy spirit during the activities and just the opposite. Recently the Lord has motivated increased investment in scripture and it has revealed an understanding of the conflict of my soul. I hope I am able to effectively communicate my spiritual analysis dissecting the ‘fruits’ of the holiday in further depth. No doubt, I will be COMPARED to a scrooge by those who enjoy gratifying the flesh, refusing to deny worldly cravings, and sparkly objects. Living in the spirit allows discerning comparison as a thief and satan is the thief involved, so I can find peace in the attacks. In fact, prior to returning to writing this blog, I encountered this topic on facebook and felt spiritually attacked by aggressive demonic influence after sharing in a comment my conviction to refrain from the traditions of men. The audacity of believing their own understanding is more important than my obedience to my conscience and Christ is absurd. Spreading the spirit of confusion and placing a person in a defensive position is a sure sign of demonic influence. I am able to take refuge by caring more about concerns of the Holy spirit than the approval of man. Fortunately, time in the word has prepared me for the battle. Honoring Christ and exposing the truth of deception that is prevalent in the worldly system is how we are called to respond.

The reality that historically this season has become the greatest period for spending, consumerism, and economic growth should be a clue of the corruption and materialistic nature that the season serves. It contradicts the spiritual satisfaction and fullness Christ provides on a consistent basis. In addition, Christmas perpetuates an idea of joy being purchased. Jesus paid the ultimate price; in order that we may experience a true joy that surpasses understanding. The nativity presents the greatest gift of freedom from bondage including materialism and traditions.

The generosity of spirit that Christ promotes yesterday, today, and tomorrow. #LivingByTheSpirit
Galatians 5:22-25 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)  The Fruit of the Spirit 22 By contrast, the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, faithfulness,  23 gentleness, and self-control. There is no law against such things.  24 And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires.  25 If we live by the Spirit, let us also be guided by the Spirit.   

I’ve compiled a list of scripture that speaks to my heart about all the spiritual violations associated with the practice of Christmas. Christmas is a time to cram all your generosity into 1 month and place emotional burdens of obligation on people. True generosity is not contrived, but rather inspired by the Holy spirit in a profound and continual basis, followed by the fruits of the spirit. According to the Bible and fruits, joy and treasures are found in heaven, not earthly things that moth or rust consumes, or thieves can steal. I can find many contradictions of scripture that apply to the practice involved with celebrating Christmas. Furthermore it is completely shallow and promotes piety which the book of Matthew covers.

  Matthew 6:20 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
 20 but store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust[a] consumes and where thieves do not break in and steal.   
  Matthew 6:1-4 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
 Concerning Almsgiving
6 “Beware  of practicing your piety before others in order to be seen by them; for  then you have no reward from your Father in heaven.
 “So  whenever you give alms, do not sound a trumpet before you, as the  hypocrites do in the synagogues and in the streets, so that they may be  praised by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward.  But when you give alms, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing,  so that your alms may be done in secret; and your Father who sees in secret will reward you.[a] 

There is nothing more pretentious than decorating an object to make it appear special. The Bible reveals that our sight is unreliable and it is wise to avoid emphasis on appearance. True gifts don’t need to be masked and when analyzed reveals deception on a deeper spiritual level. The Christ I’ve experienced doesn’t restrict gifts to once a year and they are usually unexpected, mysteriously given, and not what our eyes could even conceive. The truth is, at the core, we really don’t know what we need or want because the heart is deceptive. Christmas is contrived and promotes desires of the flesh. Christians lives should not resemble non believers or pagans. The Bible promotes transformation and appearing peculiar to those outside the will of Christ.

  2 Corinthians 6:14-18 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
 The Temple of the Living God
14 Do  not be mismatched with unbelievers. For what partnership is there  between righteousness and lawlessness? Or what fellowship is there  between light and darkness?  15 What agreement does Christ have with Beliar? Or what does a believer share with an unbeliever?  16 What agreement has the temple of God with idols? For we[a] are the temple of the living God; as God said,
“I will live in them and walk among them,
    and I will be their God,
    and they shall be my people.
17 Therefore come out from them,
    and be separate from them, says the Lord,
and touch nothing unclean;
    then I will welcome you,
18 and I will be your father,
    and you shall be my sons and daughters,
says the Lord Almighty.” 
  Jeremiah 10:2-4 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
 Thus says the Lord:
Do not learn the way of the nations,
    or be dismayed at the signs of the heavens;
    for the nations are dismayed at them.
For the customs of the peoples are false:
a tree from the forest is cut down,
    and worked with an ax by the hands of an artisan;
people deck it with silver and gold;
    they fasten it with hammer and nails
    so that it cannot move.  
Test the fruits and you will see the truth about santa.

Christ and santa cannot coexist when applied to spiritual wisdom. It is impossible to divide devotion to both Christ and a fabricated idol; stealing omnipresent authority and provision. Santa teaches children at a very impressionable time that lying or pretending is acceptable in some circumstances. Never mind it sets a terrible standard of deception to innocence, including implications of sorcery like flying reindeer and mind control. The idea of sneaking inside homes after dark is a fruit of satan and isn’t a coincidence that the letters rearranged are interchangeable: santa=satan. You won’t find any good “fruits” when you test the fruits of santa. Holidays reveal so much spiritual blindness.

I haven’t uncovered any Biblical reference’ to Jesus or his disciples celebrating or placing significance on the birth of Jesus; besides for the actual event itself? Only a selfish and worldly mentality would believe that celebrating Christ the way you want would please Him. His ways are not ours, the Bible shows obedience as a product of Loving the Father. The closer my relationship to the Lord’s heart, the less I find the world has to offer. In fact, you become filled and inspired to purge and release anything not associated with His will. Naturally, I have experienced losing interest in the things of the world; in a process involving sanctification. My intentions are to hopefully inspire others to evaluate their motives regarding activities that are meaningless to Christ, while focusing upon spiritual aspects of life and the purpose in our actions. The spirits I am able to discern of Christmas are based on idolatry, materialism,piety,gluttony, and deception. Details in scripture provide no evidence for many of the traditions being passed from men to men. The birth of our Father in heaven should be celebrated all year with attention to His spirit!

  John 14:15 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
 The Promise of the Holy Spirit
15 “If you love me, you will keep[a] my commandments.   
Bible Gateway James 4

We should be living by the spirit and when that occurs the vale of deception becomes apparent. It took me over 40 years to come to the realization and truth of the constant evil being perpetuated in things that might appear loving or righteous. The Bible warns of darkness hiding in light, in other words; satan and his workers know how to disguise and manipulate the truth to deceive even the most loyal to Christ. It is why the Bible also warns to be on guard for attacks; which can be subtle. It is deceptive and delusional to believe anybody is immune to deception and takes years of experience to reveal all the ways our heart and mind betray us. My intentions are to inform, share and let the Lord speak to hearts about the matter, not guilt and shame people for deception that is a very real and present danger to us all. I choose my gift to the Savior to be devotion to His Will, all the days of my life! I think it is better to be a gift and why I meditate on the Holy word of God in relationship with the One and only able to allow this to happen. I certainly don’t know if celebrating demonic things will send a person to hell but what I know from scripture is that it doesn’t please the Lord. I also know that personally I prefer to avoid any deception or harm involving fruits of darkness.

  Ephesians 4:27 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
 27 and do not make room for the devil.   
  Ephesians 6:11 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
 11 Put on the whole armor of God, so that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.   
True worship celebrates the gift of Christ with obedience.
 1 John 2:3-6 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
3 Now by this we may be sure that we know him, if we obey his commandments. 4 Whoever says, “I have come to know him,” but does not obey his commandments, is a liar, and in such a person the truth does not exist; 5 but whoever obeys his word, truly in this person the love of God has reached perfection. By this we may be sure that we are in him: 6 whoever says, “I abide in him,” ought to walk just as he walked.
Playlist I created in search of following spiritual convictions.

Virtue Shaming: Trending Online

Mediocrity Trending

Between all the proclaiming Christians scrutinizing and slamming President Trump and Kanye West in online posts; an obvious reflection of the corruption of the church and spreading a false gospel is revealed. I’ve never witnessed such obvious contempt for righteousness; spiritual blindness, attacks, and hypocrisy promoting faith on a sliding scale, eliminating redemption, transformation, mercy, grace, and the power of Jesus . It sets a very distorted example to those unfamiliar with Christ, with implications the fabric of restoration, transformation,grace, and mercy as mere fabrications. It can be exhausting being an empath with energy sensitivity; it inspires turning to God’s Word and writing as therapy. Hiding my head in scripture has become my normal and is a cultural sin in the “can’t win culture”. How dare anybody be different and claim to understand the heart of Christ! (sarcasm) It reminds me of exactly what Jesus encountered at the cross; so would be consistent with prophesy and spiritual awakening. Impossible? According to scripture, nothing is impossible when it concerns Christ and I happen to have first hand knowledge with what has seemed impossible and unimaginable. Projection creates assumptions by accusers that presume the type of devotion and relationship with Christ being displayed must be pretense or acting; given a lack of experience that differs from their reality. Yes, some of us honestly hide our heads in scripture and prayer almost 24/7, especially confronted by struggle; which happens often living with a chronic illness. How could we not? I have simply learned my inability to trust myself while being human and life is so much better when relying on truth and the Bible. I mean, I’ve lived over 26 years at odds with my flesh; which naturally produces being at odds with the culture too, being forced to focus on the spiritual. Those of little faith have the audacity to minimize and deny my reality? How else would I have survived all the loss that has accompanied my journey being physically compromised for as long as I have? How else would I have overcome walking closely to the valley of death over half of my life? It can be so frustrating dealing with those that don’t seem to understand the dynamics of devotion that is beyond yourself; leading to assumptions and blame thrown by non-believers and Christians “in name only” alike. According to scripture and divine intent, Christians should appear different from non-believers, however, culture and demons have conditioned and poisoned minds into a religion of mediocrity or laws. The devil keeps pushing society farther and farther away from truth; using shame and insecurity as weapons of choice. When I encounter things I know in my heart to be wrong, I instinctively run to the cross and God’s word, out of absolute necessity and habit when living a physical battle that involves rescue by spiritual and supernatural means of Christ. Scripture becomes a natural reflex where the Bible is a refuge; providing peace during times of darkness and confusion. I am genuinely aware I desperately need God. So I recently started documenting a list of all the scripture that applies to the most common violations encountered online recently; pointing to the evidence of demonic infiltration in society. If it weren’t for scripture I would probably go insane; which might explain the increased episodes of insanity that result from the lack of Bible time investment for many. Spiritual abuse and blindness is habitually trending on social media outlets to the spiritually inclined and ironically even sometimes in comments regarding posts of scripture that exemplify the contradiction. #ChristianShaming

  1 Corinthians 1:27 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
27 But God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise; God chose what is weak in the world to shame the strong;
  Zechariah 8:6 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
Thus says the Lord of hosts: Even though it seems impossible to the remnant of this people in these days, should it also seem impossible to me, says the Lord of hosts?
 Romans 1:21 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV) 21  for though they knew God, they did not honor him as God or give thanks  to him, but they became futile in their thinking, and their senseless  minds were darkened.  
 Luke 5:31-32 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV) 31  Jesus answered, “Those who are well have no need of a physician, but  those who are sick; 32 I have come to call not the righteous but sinners  to repentance.”  
  Galatians 5:19-25 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
19 Now the works of the flesh are obvious: fornication, impurity, licentiousness, 20 idolatry, sorcery, enmities, strife, jealousy, anger, quarrels, dissensions, factions, 21 envy,[a] drunkenness, carousing, and things like these. I am warning you, as I warned you before: those who do such things will not inherit the kingdom of God.
The Fruit of the Spirit
22 By contrast, the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, and self-control. There is no law against such things. 24 And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. 25 If we live by the Spirit, let us also be guided by the Spirit.
 James 3:17 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV) 17  But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle,  willing to yield, full of mercy and good fruits, without a trace of  partiality or hypocrisy.   
 1 Corinthians 4:6 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV) 6 I have  applied all this to Apollos and myself for your benefit, brothers and  sisters,[a] so that you may learn through us the meaning of the saying,  “Nothing beyond what is written,” so that none of you will be puffed up  in favor of one against another.  
 Romans 12:3 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV) 3  For by the grace given to me I say to everyone among you not to think  of yourself more highly than you ought to think, but to think with sober  judgment, each according to the measure of faith that God has assigned. 
 Ephesians 4:29 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV) 
29 Let no evil talk come out of your mouths, but only what is useful for building up,[a] as there is need, so that your words may give grace to those who hear.
 There  are six things the Lord hates, seven that are detestable to him:  haughty eyes, a lying tongue, hands that shed innocent blood, a heart  that devises wicked schemes, feet that are quick to rush into evil, a  false witness who pours out lies and a person who stirs up conflict in  the community."
- Proverbs 6:16-19
Renewing of the mind #transformed

Finally, I find it ridiculous when people use the term self righteous, because there is no such thing;it is an oxymoron. It is an obvious sign that the person making the statement has been deceived using understanding of the flesh. This observation doesn’t make me judgemental, but rather discerning of “fruits”. If a person displays righteous behavior, it is a “fruit” of obedience and focus on the Holy Spirit, because righteousness cannot be produced from selfishness or absence from Christ. So tired of the cultural brainwashing and lies that motivate others to perceive everything as a competition; which defies the teaching of Christ. If I were in a competition, it would probably be something like Dancing with the Stars. 😉 I’m different, we’re all different. I am privy to things that no other person has experienced; including supernatural observance’ while dealing with particular circumstances and gifts obtained through suffering. Others will have their own profound encounters with lessons, because we were created as a body of individuals. The world doesn’t need millions of people that provide the same service or gifts; it would rob us of our value. Furthermore, it is a complete violation of spiritual boundaries, referred to as coveting in the Bible. Shaming another person for something you don’t possess is selfish too. Just because others appear more diligent does not mean they perceive themselves better, however, it is a tool of success and should indicate the exact opposite. Newsflash….. living with a chronic illness involves a requirement of consistently trying harder and perseverance. If I was already righteous in my own mind, I wouldn’t even spend effort seeking scripture and growth? Perception can be deception and the Bible describes how we develop a kingdom mindset as transformation. Confidence in Christ only produces a threat to those focused on things of the world. #ResistSatan #ChristianShaming People can be so double minded. Would they accuse a minister of being self-righteous? Probably just the opposite and point out their inadequacy? It’s a no win culture war and it needs to stop! Focus on Christ and your part in His plan should be our motive, instead of where the Bible instructs we have no business. Scripture warns that comparison is a thief and satan is the thief, so when you compare you are serving satan. Nobody can know Christ without investing time and energy. To assume knowing scripture would reflect superiority is irrational and foolish. I realize though that targets of scrutiny are in good company because they hated Jesus first and scripture warns of this happening.

By design I have always been an all or nothing individual and I am all in for Christ. If that makes me extreme then it affirms my diligence, because I never want to be a lukewarm Christian or lukewarm anything for that matter. Life is so ironic that being an actual Christian is extreme living. There is so much double mindedness and resentment thrown at those who thrive because of Christ; as if it is even possible without Christ? I sure don’t know how, but then I am only able to understand what I have encountered. Mediocrity is celebrated, while success is punished and coveted by the worldly standard. Transformation and conquering the devil is now popularly known as self righteous by those of little faith who believe a lie; that a life dependent on Christ is unattainable. I literally live and breathe Christ’ word and strength and will not be shamed into censoring my whole life experience. This type of faith requires a great deal of time spent suffering and affliction. You discover more value using time when living with limitations because time is a commodity that can’t be wasted. #GoBigOrGoDown #Winning #EmpathsFeelSoMisunderstood #ChristianShaming #BlessedAreThePureInHeart #ChooseFaith

 Look carefully then how you walk, not as unwise but as wise,
making the best use of the time, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the will of the Lord is.
Ephesians 5:15-17

In typical fashion Christ always uses the challenging moments for His good and inspires writing. So it is now obvious to viewers when I feel attacked. 😉 There is an abundance of relevant scripture that is applicable to life and especially the cyber influence that is happening.


Days of Confusion

Once again a local news post for propaganda on facebook inspired a passion into understanding and exposing evil in a world that tries to label it as the opposite; also known in psychology as gas lighting. It is apparent who is not paying attention and spiritually blind in these evil days. God hates evil and everything involved with it; and as His child so do I. It is why I have become almost obsessed with psychology, which is the study of human behavior. Satan is the reason humans created psychology to try and explain spirituality and fruits of demonic influence that lead to a depraved mind calling it mental illness. Satan is the inventor of spiritual deception, confusion, and gas lighting which is labeled mental illness.

Getting to the point that has been made clear when looking through the lens of scripture, is that the Democratic platform has based their platform on satan. It is a party that promotes coveting, theft, idolatry, confusion, and oppression. It is a party that seeks to gain power over the flesh while minimizing the power of the spirit. It is a party of deception! You cannot fight what you refuse to acknowledge and why democrats want nothing more to deceive people into believing they are powerless.

Fear is a fruit of satan.
   John 10:10 New International Version (NIV)
10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the fullest.

The Democrats policies; kill babies, steal wealth, and destroy families. How original……NOT! They are the party of gas lighting,labels, and identity theft or as known as identity politics. The content of a person’s character or spirit is ignored while they impose spiritual coveting. Just one example is the significance they place on skin color, gender, or anything shallow and of the flesh that can be used as a mask of illusion. They are spiritually blind and deceived while focusing on the opposite of what matters and valuable. They cannot understand people who are different and free from bondage, nor do they even want to, because they are selfish and therefor hate and resent it. They choose fear of objects, hats, organizations; all which are void of power without a source of spirituality. They are ignorant to the reality that power has to be given and is a choice of free will; coming from either submission to Christ or self ( aka satan ). Their insecurity and fear reveals who they have given power to and it’s the opposite of Christ, which produce good “fruits”.

  2 Timothy 1:7-8 New International Version (NIV)
For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline. So do not be ashamed of the testimony about our Lord or of me his prisoner. Rather, join with me in suffering for the gospel, by the power of God.
Satan is the God of this world and liberalism is a product.

Those that have submitted their life to faith and following Christ learn through experience the deception that fear is. They realize fear is a liar and an illusion provided by the author of confusion, known as satan.

Democrats, liberals, or progressives never come from a place of empowerment because it can’t be understood when living in bondage. The Bible also explains how darkness hates light and reveals their hate for those empowered while living in the light among a dark world. It produces a fruit of resentment in the weak. It explains why democrats will always use the weakest group because they are the easiest to control while knowing only bondage. Democrats believe the only way to gain power is to take it from someone else. They are ignorant of self empowerment through Christ and assume anyone feeling empowered had to steal it from somebody else; they cannot comprehend the supernatural power that God provides when living out faith in Christ. Another tool of satan is division and dividing and conquering. The Holy spirit has made it clear in His Word we are all created spiritually equal from birth and meant to live in harmony. When you are filled with this kind of gentle spirit not controlled with ego, insecurity, or controlling others it produces peace. The reality is nobody is better or worse and any belief otherwise is a sign of deception and an influence of demonic spirit. Pay attention because anybody spreading discourse and trying to appear better than another individual is demonically inspired. Also be diligent to recognize the difference between a spirit of correction and condemnation because satan is a pro at blurring the truth and creating insecurity in a spiritually weak person. It is why it is so important we only meditate and allow our spirit to be defined by Christ and His word. Someone informing you that you are wrong in a matter is correction, while someone exalting their knowledge and claiming you are wrong is condemnation. It can be very insidious and attention to detail, confidence and intimacy in Christ is required for recognizing the difference. It takes practice and therefor regular reflection and meditation on the Word and prayer are necessary; resulting in continuous spiritual communication to the Lords channel.

  James 3:17 New International Version (NIV)
17 But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere.
  1 Corinthians 4:6 New International Version (NIV)
Now, brothers and sisters, I have applied these things to myself and Apollos for your benefit, so that you may learn from us the meaning of the saying, “Do not go beyond what is written.” Then you will not be puffed up in being a follower of one of us over against the other.
  Romans 12:3 New International Version (NIV)
Humble Service in the Body of Christ
For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the faith God has distributed to each of you.

Spirituality is actually very simple to understand and recognize when you have been conditioned to seek, practice, and apply the Word of God to living. Empowerment and encouragement are good and Holy fruits while the opposite like victimizing and discouragement are bad fruits and seeds of the devil. The world ruler tries to blur the spiritual line between good and evil, however, good and evil are like night and day.

The democrats goal in obvious spiritual depravity, is to silence anyone calling evil what it really is. They even created a term for this spiritual manifestation called political correctness. The democrats don’t want any hint of spirituality used in government and they use the old “separation of church and state” as witchcraft because when you get the Bible involved they are exposed for the corrupt and evil that they truly are. It also prevents the people from being rightly empowered by their birth and God’s sovereign plan.

Incurable Faith

Holistic Health Explained

I often have this recurring thought, you don’t know what you don’t know. I know health because I know illness and my struggles have lead me on a journey to learning and incredible spiritual growth. I have also discovered health care has nothing to do with actual health and that the government should not have any control of the debacle; which they know nothing about. Not only did I work in “health care”, specifically pharmacy, for nearly 15 years, I have currently experienced the industry extensively for over 25 years dealing with my chronic illness. If it was effective I would not be sick for over half of my existence and experience the progression of disease, which has included Neurosarcoidosis,Primary Immune Deficiency, I.T.P, G.E.R.D, and C.O.P.D to diagnose parts of the multiplying dysfunctions. I have survived over 25 years of conventional medicine because I have boldly chosen to seek Christ and rely on faith to direct my decisions and it didn’t happen overnight or doing what was typical. From the beginning of my illness the treatments never made sense, however, like most people I had to learn the hard way. It took time and patience to break free from the status quo. Experience has always been the best teacher. If I had remained on the conventional medicine course I would be dead and I am not being over dramatic either. I can recall several critical moments, however, 2012 was when it became imperative the need to change course. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing and expecting different results. Even now, still being severely immune suppressed the last 6 years, you recognize the miracle of living and the obvious understanding that God ultimately decides when our mission is accomplished and our earthly term is finished. Our unknowing is limitless and provides for a thirst for understanding. The Bible instructs that if you cling to life you will lose it and explains a lot about my journey. We are body and spirit, yet often forget how they are connected.

John 3:6 New International Version (NIV)
Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit[a] gives birth to spirit.

Mark 5:26 New International Version (NIV)
26 She had suffered a great deal under the care of many doctors and had spent all she had, yet instead of getting better she grew worse.

Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.

The first Biblical principle that has been ingrained is to try and honor my body as a temple. Nothing about medication honors our body and actually goes completely against it by manipulating the God given biologic chemistry. If you’ve ever read all the potential side effects for the common drugs and think there is anything life giving, you’ve been conditioned by the world. The author of death,stealing, and destruction is satan. You don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone; then you try and find it. We have inherited a mysterious and divine body upon birth. The Bible is the manual but we have been conditioned to believe it operates on auto pilot. Disease isn’t a random or unexplained occurrence; it’s just learning human biology hasn’t been a priority in society. Also ego likes to insist we don’t make mistakes. I have always had a passion for health but unfortunately or fortunately it took developing a chronic illness to become almost obsessed with understanding what is hidden. Since nearly approaching the 4th year anniversary of developing influenza b, that would become the ending of my employment and beginning of the unknown, it has been my mission to conquer my health and figure out how my current situation is part of a process and preparing for something more, that couldn’t be seen from where I was left. This world is filled with deception and nearsightedness. The Bible acts as spiritual glasses for clarity in a world filled with darkness. I’m constantly amazed how easily people ingest substances or foods despite potential consequences that apparently my body screams loudly to. Besides for my insight on endocrine disruptor’s and alcohol being in that category, I can’t think of a single advantage to drinking alcohol, in fact, just the opposite, it stimulates insulin in the body which in turn creates inflammation. I’ve learned that inflammation is my enemy!

” It can be extremely easy to live a life of comfort. A life in which the choices we make are made solely based on what is easiest, benefits us quickest, and is most convenient. Be assured that a life that is truly lived includes many of the following: bumps, laughter, bruises, joy, discomfort, success, heartache. Often times, where you want to be is not where you are called to be. Going where you are called is certainly not always pleasant or perfect but it is always beautiful and good.” ~Sidewalk Prophets 3/25/19#thesesimpletruthstour #swpfamily #beencouraged

Living with an invisible illness enlightens you to the major deception you must face living. The deception comes from everywhere and everyone; including many doctors. It requires having strong communication skills with an ability to convey symptoms that at times seem unusual, even peculiar, to those who have never lived it. The forsaken reality is, seeing is believing and not seeing is not believing. It is why I eventually started documenting my very unique, or as doctors remarked, my complex case. As I look back and read my medical records the gratitude sinks deeper of the strength and perseverance that has accompanied this battle which can’t be seen. The characteristics you obtain on this journey are priceless and the cost is great but the value is greater; which often seems unnoticed by the rest of the world sometimes. Invisible illness has revealed learning deeper truths in every area of life, but particularly the curiosity of the soul and it’s Creator.

Valentine’s Epiphany

Believing in Love Again
When I was a child I enjoyed Valentines day

For me Valentine’s day was a holiday I celebrated and enjoyed as a child; where you bought or made greetings to put in a decorated mailbox and send to every boy and girl in your class. As an adult it lost it’s flavor because it represented shallow displays of affection like flowers,chocolate, and romance; which seemed to lack the kind of Love with substance that I had come to understand and desire.

Corinthians 13:4-7 New Living Translation (NLT)

4 Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud 5 or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. 6 It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. 7 Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

Although the timing wasn’t planned, I found myself ending my relationship with my ex-fiance on Valentine’s day 1995 and then another guy I had dated a week before Valentine’s day 2004, when I discontinued dating all together. I believe now that it was a result of this particular season emphasizing the disconnect between the Love I felt and the limited capacity my previous relationships offered. It was a time when I lost interest in continuing to go through the motions and decided I was no longer interested in the stale kind of love that lacked boundaries and was readily available. After my ex-fiance finally got married in April 2012 I started having conflicting thoughts that maybe I had been holding out for something that didn’t exist in this world? As a result I started carrying this burden that I had possibly made a mistake and my standards were unrealistic.

It was February 14, 2015 when all that changed and all because of a movie.

It was a Saturday and I was on my way to a hair appointment when I was listening to K-LOVE Radio and heard the advertisement for the movie audio trailer. I was instantly intrigued and when I returned home I started searching online for movie information. It was probably an hour later I was on my way to go see Old Fashioned. It was must see for me and I do not attend movies on a regular basis. This movie pulled on my heart strings and mysteriously released me from uncertainty about my past. I am forever in love with this movie!

So 2015 was the beginning of letting go of the past in virtually every aspect of my life. This little indie movie somehow managed to release something deep inside my soul and challenged me to come out from hiding my “different” heart at just the right time. It has continued to provide support and profoundly relatable insight into my journey. It even allowed me to travel approximately 8 hours to New Philadelphia, Ohio, solo again after 25 years, for a fan gathering to watch the movie in October and explore where it was filmed. I also had the privilege of meeting the creator/maker of this beautiful story and many others involved in it’s production. As a result of the facebook fan page I have been connected to a community who shares my values and soul; it carries me through and encourages. My heart and identity belongs to everything that “Old Fashioned” represents. So many details of the movie hold memories that compliment my life. As I was again watching the film I was struck again as I watched the scene where Amber and Clay discussed the movie “Sleepless in Seattle”. I watched the movie 25 years ago with my ex-fiance in Mobile,Alabama on the trip that I got engaged to him. I could go on and on about subtle triggers in the movie that provoked familiar feelings of home.

Your identity will be tied to whatever you give your heart to.” ~The Kendrick Brothers

Movie ticket for viewing in New Philadelphia, Ohio at the Quaker Theater

I love how this movie has inspired me to believe in love again! It has brought new meaning to Valentine’s day for me. At this point I honestly have no idea if I will end up finding another individual to share my heart with in this world but I am able to Love from my whole heart for the first time and it feels wonderful to live, Love, and enjoy Valentine’s day again! “Old Fashioned” is so much more than a movie, it is a movement! A movement of simplicity,authenticity,purity,depth, and grace.


They’ve made me feel like a prisoner
They’ve made me feel set free
They’ve made me feel like a criminal
Made me feel like a king

They’ve lifted my heart
To places I’d never been
And they’ve dragged me down
Back to where I began

Words can build you up
Words can break you down
Start a fire in your heart or
Put it out

Let my words be life
Let my words be truth
I don’t wanna say a word
Unless it points the world back to You

You can heal the heartache
Speak over the fear
(Speak over the fear)
God, Your voice is the only thing
We need to hear
(We need to hear)

Words can build us up
Words can break us down
Start a fire in our hearts or
Put it out

Let my words be life
Let my words be truth
I don’t wanna say a word
Unless it points the world back to You
(Back to You)

Let the words I say
(Let the words I say)
Be the sound of Your grace
(Sound like Your grace)
I don’t wanna say a word
Unless it points the world back to You

I wanna speak Your love
Not just another noise
Oh, I wanna be Your light
I wanna be Your voice

Let my words be life
Let my words be truth
I don’t wanna say a word
Unless it points the world back to You
(Back to You)

Let the words I say
(Let the words I say)
Be the sound of Your grace
(Sound like Your grace)
I don’t wanna say a word
Unless it points the world back to You
(Back to You)

Words can build us up
Words can break us down
Start a fire in our hearts
Or put it out

I don’t wanna say a word
Unless it points the world back to You


Hawk Nelson~ Words video

Deliver Us From Evil

I don’t mean to be a bummer, however, the truth isn’t always pleasant. Nobody ever claimed denying oneself is easy but it has been worth it from my experience. It is a personal decision just like any other and we usually have to learn the hard way. Evil is real and so is the Light and I prefer purity; it is my nature though, having a life path #7 and the gift of chastity. As we approach the haunting hour and evil worship that comes during October I felt it recently on my heart to warn others of the real threat that I gladly would partake in for 43 years. The Lord has been revealing the truth and deception of the holiday over the last 3 years of intimacy and growth. I can’t go back knowing what I know and experiencing the new found peace and freedom. I am still human and have the innate urge to enjoy dressing up for Halloween and not as anything evil either. It would seem as though to most it wouldn’t hurt anyone in the act,however, we would be wrong. It compromises our relationship with the Giver and Receiver of our life and All good things. It also opens energy into the darkness when we celebrate something created in the energy and spirit of darkness. That energy is very real and I not only don’t want to experience any consequence’ of inviting the occult into my world, but I also don’t intend to jeopardize my favor in the Lord that I have come to enjoy after turning away from my immaturity and foolishness. First off, as a purpose driven individual what purpose would there be in putting a costume on, besides self indulgence? Furthermore, what would provoke me to dress up as anything; other than idolatry? It all seems so pointless really in the grand scheme of life? Leave it to me to error on the safe side but my soul and devotion to God on my journey is way more important than a night or instant of self gratification. It really is no different than sex,food, or anything that can be enjoyed. Call me crazy, but I want God’s best! There is no appearance of Holiness in pretending to be something you are not. Maybe I’m overthinking but not participating in Halloween activities certainly won’t rob me of anything! I’ve personally found I don’t need anything apart from Christ and the more I practice this, the more freedom and peace I obtain.

“For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light (for the fruit of the light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth) and find out what pleases the Lord. Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but rather expose them.”
Eph 5:8-11

When you research the history of Halloween it was conceived by flawed man and continued by foolish people who never questioned their hearts and why.
It is so easy to get caught up in the flesh and ignore spiritual forces.
Looking back on my childhood I can’t help but reflect the times I was naively introduced to the dark side thinking nothing of it. My intention is to finally break free from those chains. I’ve always believed in cause/effect and that it is impossible to believe otherwise. If you understand the depths of reality,energy, and molecules of all existence; there is no such thing as nothing. Even nothing is something! Have I lost you now? LOL
“Woe to those who call evil good and good evil, who put darkness for light and light for darkness.” Isaiah 5:20

Anyway upon reflection of past events in my life it triggered contemplation of my mother purchasing an ouija board and using it thinking it was just a game. As naturally inquisitive adolescents we would ask questions. I no longer remember the basic markings on the board but I remember being creeped out by the way it really moved and the answers of where it stopped. It only takes one oops to discover an open door to hell. I believe it was an event that brought my step father into our lives and it would change my life forever. I remember the first time meeting him at Chuckie Cheese and none of us liked him; we would later discover our intuition was reliable. Besides for the fact my mother invited him to live with us and was having sex before being married to him. It was all producing an environment of sin that we would suffer the consequence. Not long after he moved in I would wake in the night to him fondling my private parts and discover holes in areas of the older farm house he would use to peek as I would bathe or change clothing. I felt helpless and would remain as if I was still sleeping; in hopes he would leave but it was never soon enough. While he lay his hands over my female essence he would verbally speak perversion and vulgarity. As I’ve recently been researching on my journey to discovery and healing from the trauma that most likely contributed to my health condition with neurosarcoidosis, I understand the connection to the teeth grinding I developed throughout high school that can be a symptom linked to a stress response occurring after significant exposure. It had probably been approximately 7 years I lived in constant fear; especially sleeping. It was in 1994 after I had been ill for a year that I left to stay with my grandparents and never leave there home. It would be 4 more years later that this monsters sins would catch up to him physically with bone cancer and the Lord would rescue and deliver me from evil. I guess I discovered early on to trust the Lord and desire purity. I feel blessed to have gained such a passion for purity and the peace it provides.
Well, I seemed to get off track maybe but the initial onset of my illness was labor day weekend and would continue the duration of October. I believe there is significant energy being produced that correlates with the calendar. In fact, it would be interesting to remember when he entered the picture because I believe I remember wearing jackets and being cold but not freezing?

“Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good.” Romans 12:9

“Let those who love the Lord hate evil.” Psalm 97:10

“To fear the Lord is to hate evil. Prov. 8:13a

“Hate the evil, and love the good, and establish judgment in the gate: it may be that the Lord God of hosts will be gracious unto the remnant of Joseph.” Amos 5:15

Closer To Love

The year 2015 was a very significant beginning of correction and transformation in all areas of my life. It was the year that began a pattern of spiritual freedom that saved me from the stress girl I had become. Thanks to the movie “Old Fashioned” for introducing me to the label and allowing me similar reflections of past emotions regarding personal relationships. The movie pulled at my heart strings and somehow released the emotional baggage I had carried for 20 years upon ending my relationship with my ex fiance’ on 2/14/1995.
Almost two months after seeing the movie and following Easter on April 8,2015, I developed influenza b and was hospitalized for 8 days. I discovered that during my hospitalization my ex, whom I had remained in contact with on facebook, had deactivated his account. It turned out to be an unexpected blessing and divine action of God; removing old situations that kept me stuck in unhealthy energy patterns and impaired growth as a result of my confusion.
Next my employer denied extending my paid sick time and I was forced to return to work prematurely. About a week after returning to work on June 27th I found myself in the ER with a diagnosis of pneumonia; adding an additional 4 days in the hospital and way more recovery time. The consequence of 22 years of worldly conventional treatments that included immune suppression and chemo drugs exhausted my immune system and it turned out being a very slow recovery process. On October 2nd. I received notice by mail from my employer releasing me from my job, however, it would reveal another blessing in disguise. I had become dissatisfied working in a field that I eventually realized contradicted my values about real health and became complacent and stuck. I was now completely free to pursue my focus on my health and aggressive hypercalcemia that had plagued me the previous 5 years. I was finally scheduled for parathyroid surgery at Loyola, when I suddenly noticed unusual bleeding issues with petechiae on November 2nd.
Definition of petechia
plural petechiae play \pə-ˈtē-kē-ˌī\
: a minute reddish or purplish spot containing blood that appears in skin or mucous membrane as a result of localized hemorrhage

Arm with petechiae

I immediately contacted my hematologist at OSF to request lab work and my cousin from Downers Grove offered to visit and pick me up to take me to Rockford; she was interested in stopping by the courthouse in search of genealogy content. About 15 minutes after completing my blood draw and leaving OSF I received a call from a nurse indicating my counts were abnormal and requesting I return for repeat labs. I was curious and inquired what the platelet count indicated and was told 0; which was no surprise and why I had contacted my provider to begin with. I responded that I was still in Rockford and would return after the current stop. My repeat blood managed to reveal 1 platelet and my Dr admitted me to the hospital for another bone marrow biopsy and treatments with IVIG for another 4 days. My doctor was also kind enough to allow me to go to the cafeteria with my cousin to eat before registering since it was now after hospital food service hours. While in the hospital at OSF I was forced to cancel my scheduled parathyroid surgery at Loyola that week. In the mean time, I finally received notice from my nephrologist at Mayo clinic for a follow-up appointment scheduled for December 5th. During the month of December my nephrologist was also able to refer and obtain additional appointments with several other specialists that included; endocrinology, hematology, rheumatology, gastroenterology, and eventually even a surgeon. I was assigned parathyroid surgery on December 16th which finally resolved my excessive calcium issues. Another bonus was I was able to decline any pain medication and maintained pain control with extra strength Tylenol and Jesus after surgery.
Goodbye employment,income, and the stress that encompassed my job! Goodbye heart baggage, former best friend and ex!
What a wild ride it has been living with sarcoidosis, however, I am able to examine how this disease has actually saved me from myself in many ways. After the realization of misguided medicine; resulting in progressive damage, the following action steps have been continual education,correction,healing, and attempted restoration of true health. I have even spent the last 2.5 years intermittent fasting and been able to reverse secondary hypothyroid as of my last visit with my endocrinologist and testing in October.
I have gained so much knowledge and understanding about the human body, immune system, and nervous system that I believe I have potentially discovered the reason for developing my “auto-immune” issues and the connection to my hyperactive nervous system also; despite the conventional medical community stating it isn’t understood. The last 3 years revealed a term for this strange ability I had with energy that I had brushed off as just being a freak; which is also known as being an empath. I have always believed that nothing happens randomly and the more soul searching, investigating, and analyzing I do the more I cannot help but speculate the possibility that sarcoidosis was a physical manifestation of my subconscious; preventing marriage or the universe changing the direction of my life? I mean, 6 weeks after I became engaged I suddenly became seriously ill? Talk about the significance of timing!
To be continued finally! After the realization of being stuck in life and love I am able to embrace my inner heart; it started with sarcoidosis, searching, and divine intervention. God truly does create good out of the bad.

It has truly caught me by surprise in some ways, as I explore unfamiliar territory. It can be scary experiencing desires after denying them in varying degrees for the previous 20+ years. Most recently I have noticed a spiritual shift of peace, despite being emptied completely. It took losing most everything physically to allow space in my soul to fill as a result of finally having complete focus on God and His leading with no worldly distractions. I truly feel as if I have found my inner child again. I didn’t remember the exact date of my engagement, I just knew it was around the Fourth of July. After it was announced that the movie “Sleepless In Seattle” was celebrating the 25th anniversary; which I had seen with Nate at a theater in Mobile,Alabama during that engagement trip, I was inspired to dig into my time capsule and explore my past so I could finally release it. So July 2nd. marks the 25 year anniversary of my engagement and it feels significant to my current journey and recent spiritual revelations. Plus I have always been convinced that God is a very calculated planner and there are significant numbers revealed in the divine realm. It just so happens that 25 is 2+5= 7 and even the Bible has provided evidence of 7 being divine.
I received my daily devotion @NeilVermillion for today and am sharing it for confirmation of God’s obvious communication and involvement in my current journey.

In this moment I am not only moving you into brand new directions, but adding to the experience you already possess. I am taking core habits and practices and adding additional insights and understanding so you will see innovations and adjustments you could not see in the past. I am expanding what you know already. I am expanding what you are already able to do. I am capitalizing on your existing base of knowledge base as I continue to make it deeper.
With this in mind, do not look to the horizon of tomorrow with expectations of new things to be given, for much of what you will experience in this present season will not be new, but will be a reintroduction and reiteration of what you already know. Look to the same and familiar routine acknowledging its value, knowing it serves its purpose, but also that it is giving birth to new understanding by means of new interpretation.
Remain sensitive and alert in the day to day activities of your calling, for I am highlighting small and incremental changes that will open up new conversations and new applications. In these new adjustments you will surely come to learn what you could not, or did not, learn in your past. I am working with you this day to empower you to observe what you could not see before, even though it was already there.

I am giving you brand new revelation, as well as additional depth to existing revelation. Both will be needed and both will be given, so that you will lack nothing that is essential. You will acquire, process, and understand all you need, including interpretation and discernment for today, as well as a heightened awareness and understanding for tomorrow.

As you remain faithful over the course of time you will see it come to pass, the fulfillment of your heart’s desires. You will see how each day is significant in its value and its progression. You will perceive the value and appreciate its worth, for in all these things you will advance, and will surely acquire and accomplish all I have intended for you.”

So despite all the challenges and loss I have experienced in the past 3 years I have experienced expansion and fullness of my heart! Now onto the expectation of complete physical healing!