Less is Divine

The last 16 months have been a time of letting go of everything and realizing all that I have and what is truly important. I am blessed and it took losing most everything to understand this. I had become so distracted from my purpose and destiny. I had been depending on myself to try and keep up with worldly standards; when I honestly wasn’t even interested in the world. I was compromising my true power in Christ and taking for granted my health in the process, without even noticing. It wasn’t until I had been off work for over a year and avoided the hospital that I was able to experience freedom from a job that was killing me. I went from working in a Pharmacy and ending up in the hospital 4 times annually the previous 5 years to not being in the hospital at all; priceless! I have been without income for 7 months so far and I have found so much peace and freedom in Christ. It is empowering not having any desire for the material world. I’ve found spending most of my time spiritually seeking my Savior very rewarding. I have been blessed with so much! God is good and until you allow Him the energy and time you’ll never understand how He can move those mountains that we all have to climb in this broken world. God has shown me how much better His plans and understanding are. I am grateful for everything I missed while I was trying to do what the world expected me to do; instead of what God created me to do. Even at this point I’m not quite sure what I am suppose to be doing, however, it is obvious now what I didn’t need to be doing any longer and I trust God will guide me. As a result of my health experience I became wounded by the health care and pharmacy system and felt as though I was working with the enemy. I felt maybe I should keep my enemy close in my mind, but it changed me and I became a sell out for a job and income. I finally feel free to be exactly who God created me to be. Now I just have to figure out what that is? I’ve always believed “less is more” and now I am living the proof and content beyond my own understanding.
Unexpectedly politics has been a major theme this past year. I always hated politics but I think because it was out of my influence. As a result of the damage to healthcare I had been following Ted Cruz since his filibuster in 2013 and gained hope by his tenacity. So naturally when he entered into the Presidential race I was eager to support his constitutional and impeccable standards. Undoubtedly the laws of attraction opened doors that I never knew existed. It was around May of 2016 that my information was flagged as a conservative activist and I received an invitation from the heritage action sentinel program. So never think that signing a petition can not make a difference. I was accepted to the program and have learned so much insight into what is happening in the House and Senate. I have really enjoyed the weekly calls and feel like it has given me power in my destiny. Also as a result of following Ted Cruz I was introduced to other passionate Christian Conservatives and one invited me to be a moderator to his group “Prayer Warriors for America”. It has been so challenging and rewarding spiritually; more so than anything physical that I have experienced. I have always known I was a leader but at the same time was intimidated by the status; also because I really am just a servant at heart who refuses to follow anybody other than Christ. I have grown exponentially since being away from the stress and distractions of my job. So not only did I benefit physically but also spiritually; it makes sense though because they cannot be separated until death. Most people become so caught up in the physical; they miss the whole picture!
Lastly, my cousin introduced me to the product Juice Plus and after I had noticed benefit to my health I decided I would become a distributor in hopes I would be able to encourage others to prioritize nutrition and maybe even gain some income. I honestly have failed miserably so far, however, good things do come to those who wait. Patience is a virtue and I believe everything works for the good of the Lord. So in conclusion, this past year tested my spiritual endurance and strengthened my connection to Christ and my faith. I never imagined it was possible to get closer to Christ and I’m sure He has much farther to take me. Distractions are a fruit of the Devil!


Spiritual Hypocrisy

As a result of my unemployment I have been able to give my undivided attention to Christ and spiritual focus to sustain me. God continues to give clarity in the purpose of any suffering, loss, and challenges I face. I have also been exposed to the reality of spiritual ignorance that is so typical. Most people are slaves to the physical and completely ignore the spiritual: motivations,intentions, and emotions which drive physical actions. So many are deceived and can’t even recognize the why! There is a reason for every choice and everything we do in life, regardless if you understand the why. The why is what gives the clarity! The why is the energy of the spirit.
Recently, my mother and I had gone to the “White Chocolate Grill” prior to attending a JuicePlus conference that I had invited her to. After my mother had taken a picture of our dessert and posted it to share on social media my sister made the comment “When are you going again,I want to go.” Her comment was pretty out of touch since it wasn’t like this would be a regular event or if it ever had been; it was simply one of those special opportunities that God presented, which is clearly something my sister doesn’t recognize in her world. Ironically, she is among the 1% and can’t even appreciate it because she is so consumed with what other people are doing and comparing? What would be stopping her from going to this restaurant with her family? She was jealous and in denial. She also believes she is a Christian, however, her thoughts and desires are of the flesh, aka Satan. She became so upset by my mothers generous gesture that she called me a mooch and continued to use my physical limitations against me. In other words, she wanted to steal any joy,peace, enjoyment, or experience that I had received. How sick and twisted is that? I wonder if she also condemns the homeless and gets upset when they are given something? She has so much resentment toward me for my freedom from materialism. What other possible motivation would someone have to condemn 2 people; my mother for giving and myself for accepting. Because I am so analytical I couldn’t help but question so many things about the situation. I wasn’t aware that either of us was accountable to her. She put me on the defensive and slandered my character and doesn’t even recognize it as verbal assault. Assault is not just physical and it has become all too popular lately to verbally throw stones at others. That certainly isn’t consistent with WWJD and in fact is a trait of Satan who is a thief and destroyer. I have never witnessed so much hate and hypocrisy in society lately. We truly are experiencing so many signs related to the End Times. So my sister was guilty of greed, coveting,gossip, and stealing; not to mention her separate choices in life of gluttony. Too many people can’t seem to connect the spiritual connection to the physical these days.
I continue to learn so many valuable lessons in my time of waiting on God. Freedom has nothing to do with money and most people become enslaved by it. In fact in some small ways it impacted me previously also and compromised my health. My job that provided income had become a misplaced priority because without my health being the priority I had no ability to work and earn income. As my dad always says ” When you don’t have your health, you don’t have anything.” There is some truth to that but I still insist that I have God and gained so much spiritual insight because of losing my health.
For the commandments say, “You must not commit adultery. You must not murder. You must not steal. You must not covet.” These—and other such commandments—are summed up in this one commandment: “Love your neighbor as yourself.” Love does no wrong to others, so love fulfills the requirements of God’s law.
Romans 13:9-10 NLT

Bad Medicine

Life has seemed like a treasure hunt in pursuit of pieces to the health puzzle I have sought over the last 23+ years hoping to regain my health. I think I first need to add a disclaimer; the intention of this post isn’t to insult doctors because I have great respect for my providers, albeit they seem to be confined to the book of “one size fits all” answers? My goal would be to expose the flaws in the broken system and transform health as God has intended, because He is a healer! What happened to individualized medicine? The world has sucked in medicine, just like everything else!
I guess I thought seeking care at a facility based on Christianity; where the slogan was “we treat the human spirit” might involve seeking the Creator and Holy Spirit for guidance? Not only did it not seem the case; I actually had to argue many times about wasteful tests before procedures; like pregnancy, because apparently I couldn’t possibly be single,over 30, and celibate living in society by the worlds standard? Why would I lie about my standard of faith? I guess the question should be, why do so many not own their life? Of course, I do have a past, but fortunately I have learned from those mistakes and Sarcoidosis has taught me. When you have a chronic illness you no longer have a choice but to submit to wisdom.
Another contradiction, I thought medicine was suppose to be a science? I have found very little science in the broken system as I have tried to scale it. Science would actually test for the specific microorganism causing illness; whether bacteria,viral,fungal, or parasite. If the intention is to treat or cure a condition with a medication it shouldn’t be potentially worthless. In addition, those treatments can come with horrible consequences’ to the magnificent human machine God created. Logic explains in order to heal or cure an illness, the cause must be addressed. I can’t help but compare a vehicle to the human body; if the car didn’t start would you just add gas or oil and hope it starts? LOL Of course not! So why is this an acceptable norm in medicine?
It has never made sense to treat an over responsive immune malfunction with destruction? Satan is the thief and destroyer; so now medicine is used as a tool for Satan? That is the depth of my heart and how my pure heart understands it. I guess I am just too spiritual for this world? God created our immune system for survival in a dangerous ecosystem that contains plenty of ammunition that the enemy intends to use for destruction. Our bodies divinely use homeostasis to adapt to our surroundings. I can’t deny that some of the medications achieved the desired momentary result and have been beneficial initially for survival, however, 20+ years of immune suppression is excessive and outweighs the good. Less really is more and moderation is key with anything in life. Drugs have taken the role of instant gratification by current medical standards and are manipulative tools against intelligent design. Keeping someone alive to just survive has never been my desire; quality over quantity is my goal. I just wish the purpose of medicine was to actually improve health and not just mask symptoms and problems afflicted by this broken and deceptive world.
Ephesians 6:12-13New Living Translation (NLT)
12 For we[a] are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.
13 Therefore, put on every piece of God’s armor so you will be able to resist the enemy in the time of evil. Then after the battle you will still be standing firm.
I could list so many scriptures because I have been living the scriptures and I’m tired of living in a one dimensional world based only on the physical, when Life is the product of the Spirit. After recently documenting my medical history to apply for disability, I realized on paper I probably appear dead? Over just the last 23 years I have had 17 surgeries, 28 hospital admissions, and 390 appointments since 2004 at one location for care. However, I am more alive than ever by the Holy Spirit; who is my strength in my weakness and limitations.
James 1:2-3New Living Translation (NLT)
Faith and Endurance
2 Dear brothers and sisters,[a] when troubles of any kind come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. 3 For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow.
As a result of my endurance, I finally found an answer on my Mayo clinic profile to all the horrible reactions to medications that I have experienced. They were able to do some genetic blood tests, which did indicate an explanation of my medication issues. It is actually very technical, however, I have proof now!

Service Date/Time: 29-Mar-2016 19:31
Provider: Daniel E. Maddox, MD Pager: 4-7398

Pharmacogenomic analysis of the patient’s drug metabolizing enzymes demonstrated several potentially clinically significant abnormalities. First, the patient is an intermediate metabolizer for catechol-O-methyltransferase, and this means that she is at some risk for toxic side effects if multiple doses of adrenaline are given in the course of a resuscitation event. The patient is a potentially
altered rapid metabolizer of CYP1A2, and this potential can be
stimulated by exposure to certain environmental substances as listed in the complete laboratory report. The patient is a potential altered rapid metabolizer of CYP2C19, which means that pro drugs may get converted to active variants at an accelerated pace and lead to toxicities and compounds which are active in their native form may require larger than expected doses in order to achieve clinically useful blood levels. The patient is an intermediate
metabolizer for CYP2C9, which means that she is at
increased risk of toxic side effects and accumulation of
abnormally elevated blood levels with standard doses of the drugs handled by this center. The patient is normal for
CYP2D6-related drugs and normal for CYP3A4-related
drugs. #MyBodyDoesNotLie
So clearly even in illness; there is nothing common about me and I’m satisfied with that. The last 2 decades have been such a growing process that keeps me connected and seeking the Light and Truth of Jesus and His Supernatural and phenomenal ways. I never wanted to be identified by my illness, however, I think I could be famous for being ill? So I guess I am coming out of the medical closet. God can make illness into an art form. My body is loud and I believe my God can silence it; if not in this life, then for eternity. God continues to divinely lead me to bits and pieces of Heaven.