Exploitation of Evil

The media is a tool used by the devil as stories of spiritually broken individuals seeking affirmation have become the latest news. Depravity sells and has been conditioning weak minds. As I was watching the local evening news, they have been covering stories highlighting and promoting events in June for LGBTQ month? Needless to say, I couldn’t help but find the absurdity in this idea that sexuality would have any significance in a persons identity and how completely illogical life has evolved. We live in a world that is in constant pursuit of exploitation and division; based on choice’ not what actually defines an individual. In addition, it feeds the neediness of the ego, providing a narrative that acceptance requires celebration in order to feel good about oneself. The reality is it reveals the natural symptom of insecurity when ignoring the conscience created by God. It also explains the deficit of understanding how value is created by the price paid on the cross for ALL, regardless of acknowledgment or acceptance of this gift.

Rather than mourning over sin, the world redefines it, or worse, celebrates it. ~ John MacArthur

News article reporting on pride event.

The irony can’t go unnoticed? When the curator comments ” I wanted everyone to feel like they were included.” Does she understand that designating an event to a select group of people is an oxymoron to all and opposite of “inclusive”? Can you imagine the uproar if there was a month dedicated to celibacy, or heterosexual’s? The idea that a month should be dedicated to a particular group, based upon a proprietary decision, to feel accepted; seems ridiculous to any sane person. This concept lacks spiritual boundaries or rational thinking. The only power another person has over somebody else’s identity, would have to be given away by the owner. The only force that takes is satan. It is a sure sign that satan is involved in this movement and should be a diagnosis of mental illness; that I would term as identity dysphoria. I believe the world creates many forms of this condition of the heart; as a result of being at odds with the flesh or physical. It might include anything from size,age,orientation, status or even tatoo’s; none of which add any true value to our identity. It literally takes one thing, the Love of Christ to experience a sense of worth; the rest is worldly deception. Of course it takes experience and growth to learn this truth. There is true spiritual freedom when you are no longer attached to labels and choose to give control to your Creator. He has the plans and ultimately knows us better than we possibly can. Spiritual growth can and will be painful, therefor it is the tendency of the flesh to resist and result in bondage.

  John 10:10 New International Version (NIV)
10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.
Which will you choose?

I know Christ and Satan because I’ve experienced both of their “fruits” extensively while roaming the earth for almost 47 years. It has resulted in a decision to choose Christ and guard my body/soul at the first implication of evil. In order to understand or even recognize evil, it requires knowledge of the Bible and relationship with Christ. When you mature and become comfortable with the Word or documentation of insightful instructions, the consequence becomes obvious which “fruit” is dedicated to life, liberty, and the pursuit of JOY. I must admit I suspect I have received or developed a spiritual gift of discerning spirits that has grown over time. I guess I naively believe it can be taught and strengthened as with any other relationship. So naturally my desire is to share and teach what I have learned through the challenges I have encountered. In fact, I firmly believe disappointment breeds from not understanding how we were created and having false expectations. I would even challenge that expectations are a product of the devil, starting with the serpent in the Garden of Eden. You never know what you have, until it has been lost.

  Romans 5:3-4 New International Version (NIV)
Not only so, but we[a] also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.
  John 15:18-25 New International Version (NIV)
The World Hates the Disciples
18 “If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first. 19 If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you. 20 Remember what I told you: ‘A servant is not greater than his master.’[a] If they persecuted me, they will persecute you also. If they obeyed my teaching, they will obey yours also. 21 They will treat you this way because of my name, for they do not know the one who sent me. 22 If I had not come and spoken to them, they would not be guilty of sin; but now they have no excuse for their sin. 23 Whoever hates me hates my Father as well. 24 If I had not done among them the works no one else did, they would not be guilty of sin. As it is, they have seen, and yet they have hated both me and my Father. 25 But this is to fulfill what is written in their Law: ‘They hated me without reason.’[b]

As the days seem to draw darker and darker, you cannot escape the evidence of spiritually damaged people everywhere on social media, in the form of comments including: projection,cognitive dissonance (confusion is a product of satan),gas lighting,blame, and denial. Trump is the official scapegoat of social media and it exemplifies irony when you truly understand psychology and spiritual energy. Trump was ultimately allowed and chosen by a sovereign Lord to be President. He is hated by the media and everything associated with the world, however, is in good company according to the author and redeemer. The idea that he holds such power by those screaming and crying is outrageous and fueled by depravity. Your life is always a reflection of your spiritual condition driven by free will. If your life has no JOY, it is because you lack JOY and disconnected from the source; it is an undeniable consequence of relationship with the Holy Spirit.


Closer To Love

The year 2015 was a very significant beginning of correction and transformation in all areas of my life. It was the year that began a pattern of spiritual freedom that saved me from the stress girl I had become. Thanks to the movie “Old Fashioned” for introducing me to the label and allowing me similar reflections of past emotions regarding personal relationships. The movie pulled at my heart strings and somehow released the emotional baggage I had carried for 20 years upon ending my relationship with my ex fiance’ on 2/14/1995.
Almost two months after seeing the movie and following Easter on April 8,2015, I developed influenza b and was hospitalized for 8 days. I discovered that during my hospitalization my ex, whom I had remained in contact with on facebook, had deactivated his account. It turned out to be an unexpected blessing and divine action of God; removing old situations that kept me stuck in unhealthy energy patterns and impaired growth as a result of my confusion.
Next my employer denied extending my paid sick time and I was forced to return to work prematurely. About a week after returning to work on June 27th I found myself in the ER with a diagnosis of pneumonia; adding an additional 4 days in the hospital and way more recovery time. The consequence of 22 years of worldly conventional treatments that included immune suppression and chemo drugs exhausted my immune system and it turned out being a very slow recovery process. On October 2nd. I received notice by mail from my employer releasing me from my job, however, it would reveal another blessing in disguise. I had become dissatisfied working in a field that I eventually realized contradicted my values about real health and became complacent and stuck. I was now completely free to pursue my focus on my health and aggressive hypercalcemia that had plagued me the previous 5 years. I was finally scheduled for parathyroid surgery at Loyola, when I suddenly noticed unusual bleeding issues with petechiae on November 2nd.
Definition of petechia
plural petechiae play \pə-ˈtē-kē-ˌī\
: a minute reddish or purplish spot containing blood that appears in skin or mucous membrane as a result of localized hemorrhage

Arm with petechiae

I immediately contacted my hematologist at OSF to request lab work and my cousin from Downers Grove offered to visit and pick me up to take me to Rockford; she was interested in stopping by the courthouse in search of genealogy content. About 15 minutes after completing my blood draw and leaving OSF I received a call from a nurse indicating my counts were abnormal and requesting I return for repeat labs. I was curious and inquired what the platelet count indicated and was told 0; which was no surprise and why I had contacted my provider to begin with. I responded that I was still in Rockford and would return after the current stop. My repeat blood managed to reveal 1 platelet and my Dr admitted me to the hospital for another bone marrow biopsy and treatments with IVIG for another 4 days. My doctor was also kind enough to allow me to go to the cafeteria with my cousin to eat before registering since it was now after hospital food service hours. While in the hospital at OSF I was forced to cancel my scheduled parathyroid surgery at Loyola that week. In the mean time, I finally received notice from my nephrologist at Mayo clinic for a follow-up appointment scheduled for December 5th. During the month of December my nephrologist was also able to refer and obtain additional appointments with several other specialists that included; endocrinology, hematology, rheumatology, gastroenterology, and eventually even a surgeon. I was assigned parathyroid surgery on December 16th which finally resolved my excessive calcium issues. Another bonus was I was able to decline any pain medication and maintained pain control with extra strength Tylenol and Jesus after surgery.
Goodbye employment,income, and the stress that encompassed my job! Goodbye heart baggage, former best friend and ex!
What a wild ride it has been living with sarcoidosis, however, I am able to examine how this disease has actually saved me from myself in many ways. After the realization of misguided medicine; resulting in progressive damage, the following action steps have been continual education,correction,healing, and attempted restoration of true health. I have even spent the last 2.5 years intermittent fasting and been able to reverse secondary hypothyroid as of my last visit with my endocrinologist and testing in October.
I have gained so much knowledge and understanding about the human body, immune system, and nervous system that I believe I have potentially discovered the reason for developing my “auto-immune” issues and the connection to my hyperactive nervous system also; despite the conventional medical community stating it isn’t understood. The last 3 years revealed a term for this strange ability I had with energy that I had brushed off as just being a freak; which is also known as being an empath. I have always believed that nothing happens randomly and the more soul searching, investigating, and analyzing I do the more I cannot help but speculate the possibility that sarcoidosis was a physical manifestation of my subconscious; preventing marriage or the universe changing the direction of my life? I mean, 6 weeks after I became engaged I suddenly became seriously ill? Talk about the significance of timing!
To be continued finally! After the realization of being stuck in life and love I am able to embrace my inner heart; it started with sarcoidosis, searching, and divine intervention. God truly does create good out of the bad.

It has truly caught me by surprise in some ways, as I explore unfamiliar territory. It can be scary experiencing desires after denying them in varying degrees for the previous 20+ years. Most recently I have noticed a spiritual shift of peace, despite being emptied completely. It took losing most everything physically to allow space in my soul to fill as a result of finally having complete focus on God and His leading with no worldly distractions. I truly feel as if I have found my inner child again. I didn’t remember the exact date of my engagement, I just knew it was around the Fourth of July. After it was announced that the movie “Sleepless In Seattle” was celebrating the 25th anniversary; which I had seen with Nate at a theater in Mobile,Alabama during that engagement trip, I was inspired to dig into my time capsule and explore my past so I could finally release it. So July 2nd. marks the 25 year anniversary of my engagement and it feels significant to my current journey and recent spiritual revelations. Plus I have always been convinced that God is a very calculated planner and there are significant numbers revealed in the divine realm. It just so happens that 25 is 2+5= 7 and even the Bible has provided evidence of 7 being divine.
I received my daily devotion @NeilVermillion for today and am sharing it for confirmation of God’s obvious communication and involvement in my current journey.

In this moment I am not only moving you into brand new directions, but adding to the experience you already possess. I am taking core habits and practices and adding additional insights and understanding so you will see innovations and adjustments you could not see in the past. I am expanding what you know already. I am expanding what you are already able to do. I am capitalizing on your existing base of knowledge base as I continue to make it deeper.
With this in mind, do not look to the horizon of tomorrow with expectations of new things to be given, for much of what you will experience in this present season will not be new, but will be a reintroduction and reiteration of what you already know. Look to the same and familiar routine acknowledging its value, knowing it serves its purpose, but also that it is giving birth to new understanding by means of new interpretation.
Remain sensitive and alert in the day to day activities of your calling, for I am highlighting small and incremental changes that will open up new conversations and new applications. In these new adjustments you will surely come to learn what you could not, or did not, learn in your past. I am working with you this day to empower you to observe what you could not see before, even though it was already there.

I am giving you brand new revelation, as well as additional depth to existing revelation. Both will be needed and both will be given, so that you will lack nothing that is essential. You will acquire, process, and understand all you need, including interpretation and discernment for today, as well as a heightened awareness and understanding for tomorrow.

As you remain faithful over the course of time you will see it come to pass, the fulfillment of your heart’s desires. You will see how each day is significant in its value and its progression. You will perceive the value and appreciate its worth, for in all these things you will advance, and will surely acquire and accomplish all I have intended for you.”

So despite all the challenges and loss I have experienced in the past 3 years I have experienced expansion and fullness of my heart! Now onto the expectation of complete physical healing!