Media Crisis

Pandemic, what a scary sounding word!

The only purpose of the news media is their obvious reporting that reveals an agenda; kill, steal, and destroy. Once again, my experience with chronic illness has allowed the Holy Spirit to continue using it to expose the demonic nature of the worldly system and use it for good. The corona virus news is completely irrational for both physical and spiritual reasons; revealing spiritual deception. It took 22+ years of being in bondage to our medical system to learn the very hard way that it has never been about healing,fixing, or wellness; if it was, I would not have lived over 26 years immune suppressed and currently disabled. However, the disappointment lead me to the cross; which was where it needed to begin. It took approximately 2 years for the medical community to even put a label on my illness, but it didn’t stop them from treating the symptoms. Once I was diagnosed, it also didn’t change the way they treated the symptoms because the root cause is irrelevant to actually correcting and repairing in a worldly system that blindly serves satan. On top of my diagnosis, being immune suppressed exposed me to a wide variety of sickness; virus, bacteria, parasites, and fungus; yet only testing for a specific virus (influenza) once in 2015, during the entire history. Accordingly they blindly treated the multiple illness’ with antibiotics on occasion, despite any evidence or proof of infection. Viral testing is not typical in the medical practice despite virus’ being very typical. This alone should speak volumes about the lack of willingness of the healthcare system to achieve answers. The customary practice is based on assumption/presumption that involve symptom resolution and not health. In fact, I have survived numerous virus’, including influenza-b, pneumonia, and shingles twice over the last 26 years with immune suppression. It was a medication that almost killed me; causing a-plastic anemia with a hemoglobin of 4.6. Not so ironically that medication was hydroxychloroquin, the medication they are testing to treat corona virus; which is a sulpha medication. There is far greater risk taking any medication; just read the drug profile warnings. It’s actually ironic all the names assigned to illness’ when at the core, the problems are based on similar biologic dysfunction that manifest differently in the body.

From the beginning of this viral conspiracy, my heavenly sensor was triggered deeply by all the inconsistency and the not so coincidental, even convenient, power play it was appearing to seek. The media keeps pushing the need for testing of the virus, however, testing for the corona virus or any other virus is completely irrelevant, because it doesn’t produce a solution; specifically the way it is treated. Labeling any illness is just a way to appear they can control it; built on lies and mind control. This becomes very apparent if you have ever had to deal with the medical system and doctors for any length of time. All men are flawed and prone to deception, including those that happen to study and receive a degree in any subject; including medicine. Studying flawed information only makes you an expert in deception. Our entire education system is nothing more than a system of intellectual idolatry when it is tested against scripture. The Bible is our tool for discernment and surviving all forms of deception. This world is untrustworthy and we have an epidemic of trusting idols which can only lead to destruction. We have a fear and idolatry pandemic and need to be more concerned with what is hidden spiritually; behind all the extreme focus! Do you discern deflection?

Our media reports hearsay which is unreliable information.

There is nothing rational about locking people away to hide from exposure to a specific microorganism among many. It reveals complete ignorance of the biologic system; which include virus’, bacteria, and parasites within the natural flora and completely disregards the immune system all together.

Sadly my favorite past time lately has been debunking all the media lies and the lies are plenty. The Bible teaches us to test spirits and there are demonic spirits evident to those involved in the content of the media. The media has a condition I would compare to ADHD and nearsighted in context. The focus exploits while eliminating far greater threats; vehicle collisions, aging, accidents, obesity, alcoholism, diabetes, opioids, and even iatrogenic death. The list is never ending in a proper perspective. The media perspective of the current corona virus crisis is an agenda based on presumption which is realistically unfounded. Spiritually and rationally this effort is completely blown out of proportion and leads to demonic spiritual fruits. We live by faith, not sight, and certainly not by worldly understanding. The purpose of the media is fear based and the corona virus is the current weapon of choice. Not only does the Bible warn numerous times of the source of fear being spiritually demonic but, in addition, there are physical repercussions, which impact the physical body that are harmful; causing hormone production, inflammation, confusion, and immune suppression. Fear is an assault to life physically that is perpetuated spiritually. The crisis is completely irrational when you actually analyze all the information available regarding this virus exposure. I’ve included the statistics from the World Health Organization so you can use your own mind about the truth.

Death Stats

The misunderstanding of virus’ and ignorance of the human body is apparent with the use of masks. Virus’ do not fly or remain suspended in the air. A virus is contracted by touching something that has the viral protein on it’s surface. After it is on your hand the protein is transmitted by touching your face,nose,eyes where it has access to travel by way of the lymphatic system via mucous to the lungs. There is a false understanding that you breathe in a respiratory virus. I suppose if somebody coughed in your face or was close enough when coughing, without covering their mouth, it could potentially be inhaled but it is unlikely. There is a reason why so much emphasis is placed on hand washing for prevention because hands and skin are the transmitters that the protein obtains access to mucous carriers within the bodies lymphatic system.

Further more, the statistics by the CDC have been continually manipulated to exploit this virus in an attempt to politicize and weaponize it.

Jesus Saves From all threats!

Romans 12:2 New International Version (NIV) Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

At the root of any physical crises is a spiritual manifestation. This world is the enemy and therefor our focus always needs to start much deeper, where the enemy operates. In order to know the enemy, we must be able to recognize spiritual fruits the Bible exposes in Galatians 5:19-25. The Bible truly is the best source and provides healing at the source. I believe all illness is rooted in deception, being disconnected from our Creator and treating the divine physical body as a temple. This world keeps us running in circles, chasing the next crises and cure, when stillness is where we find we already possess access to our own power and well being. You can’t focus on Christ and His truth when you are captivated by the media and world; which is the strategy of the demonic world. Seek the Kingdom of Heaven first! Spiritual discernment saves lives.

During difficult times I have been continually lead to the Word and quiet time with Christ. While the world screams of chaos, it presents an awareness of the spiritual ignorance that is the real threat. Understanding the spiritual process of sanctification and knowing Christ produces peace in the truth of scripture. As a result it becomes apparent the true identity of any conflict according to “fruits”. If people were inclined to turn off the TV and open their Bible to spend time with our Lord and Savior, we would not have a crisis. Reality is based on perception and it points to the source of our motivation.

The way we deal with uncertainty lets us know whether Jesus is ahead of us leading, or behind us just carrying our stuff. ~Bob Goff

Finally, I would like to add a source from Dr. John Bergman who is always thought provoking and provides diverse documentation with reliable information. I have been subscribing to his channel for several years now during my journey trying to recover my health after allopathic mismanagement of my illness. He has an ideal combination of spiritual wisdom combined with solid understanding of human anatomy and biology. I have found his material to effectively communicate complex issues with a gift for teaching. It is obvious his intent is to truly help people and challenge the unfortunate ways of the world.

Dr. John Bergman D.C. 4/12/2020

Fruits of Christmas

Ezekiel 14:3 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
Mortal, these men have taken their idols into their hearts, and placed their iniquity as a stumbling block before them; shall I let myself be consulted by them?

Besides for obvious evidence that can be found of Christmas being based on pagan practice, from as early as I can remember, it never resonated with my soul either. I never experienced the “fruits” of the Holy spirit during the activities and just the opposite. Recently the Lord has motivated increased investment in scripture and it has revealed an understanding of the conflict of my soul. I hope I am able to effectively communicate my spiritual analysis dissecting the ‘fruits’ of the holiday in further depth. No doubt, I will be COMPARED to a scrooge by those who enjoy gratifying the flesh, refusing to deny worldly cravings, and sparkly objects. Living in the spirit allows discerning comparison as a thief and satan is the thief involved, so I can find peace in the attacks. In fact, prior to returning to writing this blog, I encountered this topic on facebook and felt spiritually attacked by aggressive demonic influence after sharing in a comment my conviction to refrain from the traditions of men. The audacity of believing their own understanding is more important than my obedience to my conscience and Christ is absurd. Spreading the spirit of confusion and placing a person in a defensive position is a sure sign of demonic influence. I am able to take refuge by caring more about concerns of the Holy spirit than the approval of man. Fortunately, time in the word has prepared me for the battle. Honoring Christ and exposing the truth of deception that is prevalent in the worldly system is how we are called to respond.

The reality that historically this season has become the greatest period for spending, consumerism, and economic growth should be a clue of the corruption and materialistic nature that the season serves. It contradicts the spiritual satisfaction and fullness Christ provides on a consistent basis. In addition, Christmas perpetuates an idea of joy being purchased. Jesus paid the ultimate price; in order that we may experience a true joy that surpasses understanding. The nativity presents the greatest gift of freedom from bondage including materialism and traditions.

The generosity of spirit that Christ promotes yesterday, today, and tomorrow. #LivingByTheSpirit
Galatians 5:22-25 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)  The Fruit of the Spirit 22 By contrast, the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, faithfulness,  23 gentleness, and self-control. There is no law against such things.  24 And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires.  25 If we live by the Spirit, let us also be guided by the Spirit.   

I’ve compiled a list of scripture that speaks to my heart about all the spiritual violations associated with the practice of Christmas. Christmas is a time to cram all your generosity into 1 month and place emotional burdens of obligation on people. True generosity is not contrived, but rather inspired by the Holy spirit in a profound and continual basis, followed by the fruits of the spirit. According to the Bible and fruits, joy and treasures are found in heaven, not earthly things that moth or rust consumes, or thieves can steal. I can find many contradictions of scripture that apply to the practice involved with celebrating Christmas. Furthermore it is completely shallow and promotes piety which the book of Matthew covers.

  Matthew 6:20 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
 20 but store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust[a] consumes and where thieves do not break in and steal.   
  Matthew 6:1-4 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
 Concerning Almsgiving
6 “Beware  of practicing your piety before others in order to be seen by them; for  then you have no reward from your Father in heaven.
 “So  whenever you give alms, do not sound a trumpet before you, as the  hypocrites do in the synagogues and in the streets, so that they may be  praised by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward.  But when you give alms, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing,  so that your alms may be done in secret; and your Father who sees in secret will reward you.[a] 

There is nothing more pretentious than decorating an object to make it appear special. The Bible reveals that our sight is unreliable and it is wise to avoid emphasis on appearance. True gifts don’t need to be masked and when analyzed reveals deception on a deeper spiritual level. The Christ I’ve experienced doesn’t restrict gifts to once a year and they are usually unexpected, mysteriously given, and not what our eyes could even conceive. The truth is, at the core, we really don’t know what we need or want because the heart is deceptive. Christmas is contrived and promotes desires of the flesh. Christians lives should not resemble non believers or pagans. The Bible promotes transformation and appearing peculiar to those outside the will of Christ.

  2 Corinthians 6:14-18 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
 The Temple of the Living God
14 Do  not be mismatched with unbelievers. For what partnership is there  between righteousness and lawlessness? Or what fellowship is there  between light and darkness?  15 What agreement does Christ have with Beliar? Or what does a believer share with an unbeliever?  16 What agreement has the temple of God with idols? For we[a] are the temple of the living God; as God said,
“I will live in them and walk among them,
    and I will be their God,
    and they shall be my people.
17 Therefore come out from them,
    and be separate from them, says the Lord,
and touch nothing unclean;
    then I will welcome you,
18 and I will be your father,
    and you shall be my sons and daughters,
says the Lord Almighty.” 
  Jeremiah 10:2-4 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
 Thus says the Lord:
Do not learn the way of the nations,
    or be dismayed at the signs of the heavens;
    for the nations are dismayed at them.
For the customs of the peoples are false:
a tree from the forest is cut down,
    and worked with an ax by the hands of an artisan;
people deck it with silver and gold;
    they fasten it with hammer and nails
    so that it cannot move.  
Test the fruits and you will see the truth about santa.

Christ and santa cannot coexist when applied to spiritual wisdom. It is impossible to divide devotion to both Christ and a fabricated idol; stealing omnipresent authority and provision. Santa teaches children at a very impressionable time that lying or pretending is acceptable in some circumstances. Never mind it sets a terrible standard of deception to innocence, including implications of sorcery like flying reindeer and mind control. The idea of sneaking inside homes after dark is a fruit of satan and isn’t a coincidence that the letters rearranged are interchangeable: santa=satan. You won’t find any good “fruits” when you test the fruits of santa. Holidays reveal so much spiritual blindness.

I haven’t uncovered any Biblical reference’ to Jesus or his disciples celebrating or placing significance on the birth of Jesus; besides for the actual event itself? Only a selfish and worldly mentality would believe that celebrating Christ the way you want would please Him. His ways are not ours, the Bible shows obedience as a product of Loving the Father. The closer my relationship to the Lord’s heart, the less I find the world has to offer. In fact, you become filled and inspired to purge and release anything not associated with His will. Naturally, I have experienced losing interest in the things of the world; in a process involving sanctification. My intentions are to hopefully inspire others to evaluate their motives regarding activities that are meaningless to Christ, while focusing upon spiritual aspects of life and the purpose in our actions. The spirits I am able to discern of Christmas are based on idolatry, materialism,piety,gluttony, and deception. Details in scripture provide no evidence for many of the traditions being passed from men to men. The birth of our Father in heaven should be celebrated all year with attention to His spirit!

  John 14:15 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
 The Promise of the Holy Spirit
15 “If you love me, you will keep[a] my commandments.   
Bible Gateway James 4

We should be living by the spirit and when that occurs the vale of deception becomes apparent. It took me over 40 years to come to the realization and truth of the constant evil being perpetuated in things that might appear loving or righteous. The Bible warns of darkness hiding in light, in other words; satan and his workers know how to disguise and manipulate the truth to deceive even the most loyal to Christ. It is why the Bible also warns to be on guard for attacks; which can be subtle. It is deceptive and delusional to believe anybody is immune to deception and takes years of experience to reveal all the ways our heart and mind betray us. My intentions are to inform, share and let the Lord speak to hearts about the matter, not guilt and shame people for deception that is a very real and present danger to us all. I choose my gift to the Savior to be devotion to His Will, all the days of my life! I think it is better to be a gift and why I meditate on the Holy word of God in relationship with the One and only able to allow this to happen. I certainly don’t know if celebrating demonic things will send a person to hell but what I know from scripture is that it doesn’t please the Lord. I also know that personally I prefer to avoid any deception or harm involving fruits of darkness.

  Ephesians 4:27 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
 27 and do not make room for the devil.   
  Ephesians 6:11 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
 11 Put on the whole armor of God, so that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.   
True worship celebrates the gift of Christ with obedience.
 1 John 2:3-6 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
3 Now by this we may be sure that we know him, if we obey his commandments. 4 Whoever says, “I have come to know him,” but does not obey his commandments, is a liar, and in such a person the truth does not exist; 5 but whoever obeys his word, truly in this person the love of God has reached perfection. By this we may be sure that we are in him: 6 whoever says, “I abide in him,” ought to walk just as he walked.
Playlist I created in search of following spiritual convictions.

Virtue Shaming: Trending Online

Mediocrity Trending

Between all the proclaiming Christians scrutinizing and slamming President Trump and Kanye West in online posts; an obvious reflection of the corruption of the church and spreading a false gospel is revealed. I’ve never witnessed such obvious contempt for righteousness; spiritual blindness, attacks, and hypocrisy promoting faith on a sliding scale, eliminating redemption, transformation, mercy, grace, and the power of Jesus . It sets a very distorted example to those unfamiliar with Christ, with implications the fabric of restoration, transformation,grace, and mercy as mere fabrications. It can be exhausting being an empath with energy sensitivity; it inspires turning to God’s Word and writing as therapy. Hiding my head in scripture has become my normal and is a cultural sin in the “can’t win culture”. How dare anybody be different and claim to understand the heart of Christ! (sarcasm) It reminds me of exactly what Jesus encountered at the cross; so would be consistent with prophesy and spiritual awakening. Impossible? According to scripture, nothing is impossible when it concerns Christ and I happen to have first hand knowledge with what has seemed impossible and unimaginable. Projection creates assumptions by accusers that presume the type of devotion and relationship with Christ being displayed must be pretense or acting; given a lack of experience that differs from their reality. Yes, some of us honestly hide our heads in scripture and prayer almost 24/7, especially confronted by struggle; which happens often living with a chronic illness. How could we not? I have simply learned my inability to trust myself while being human and life is so much better when relying on truth and the Bible. I mean, I’ve lived over 26 years at odds with my flesh; which naturally produces being at odds with the culture too, being forced to focus on the spiritual. Those of little faith have the audacity to minimize and deny my reality? How else would I have survived all the loss that has accompanied my journey being physically compromised for as long as I have? How else would I have overcome walking closely to the valley of death over half of my life? It can be so frustrating dealing with those that don’t seem to understand the dynamics of devotion that is beyond yourself; leading to assumptions and blame thrown by non-believers and Christians “in name only” alike. According to scripture and divine intent, Christians should appear different from non-believers, however, culture and demons have conditioned and poisoned minds into a religion of mediocrity or laws. The devil keeps pushing society farther and farther away from truth; using shame and insecurity as weapons of choice. When I encounter things I know in my heart to be wrong, I instinctively run to the cross and God’s word, out of absolute necessity and habit when living a physical battle that involves rescue by spiritual and supernatural means of Christ. Scripture becomes a natural reflex where the Bible is a refuge; providing peace during times of darkness and confusion. I am genuinely aware I desperately need God. So I recently started documenting a list of all the scripture that applies to the most common violations encountered online recently; pointing to the evidence of demonic infiltration in society. If it weren’t for scripture I would probably go insane; which might explain the increased episodes of insanity that result from the lack of Bible time investment for many. Spiritual abuse and blindness is habitually trending on social media outlets to the spiritually inclined and ironically even sometimes in comments regarding posts of scripture that exemplify the contradiction. #ChristianShaming

  1 Corinthians 1:27 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
27 But God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise; God chose what is weak in the world to shame the strong;
  Zechariah 8:6 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
Thus says the Lord of hosts: Even though it seems impossible to the remnant of this people in these days, should it also seem impossible to me, says the Lord of hosts?
 Romans 1:21 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV) 21  for though they knew God, they did not honor him as God or give thanks  to him, but they became futile in their thinking, and their senseless  minds were darkened.  
 Luke 5:31-32 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV) 31  Jesus answered, “Those who are well have no need of a physician, but  those who are sick; 32 I have come to call not the righteous but sinners  to repentance.”  
  Galatians 5:19-25 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
19 Now the works of the flesh are obvious: fornication, impurity, licentiousness, 20 idolatry, sorcery, enmities, strife, jealousy, anger, quarrels, dissensions, factions, 21 envy,[a] drunkenness, carousing, and things like these. I am warning you, as I warned you before: those who do such things will not inherit the kingdom of God.
The Fruit of the Spirit
22 By contrast, the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, and self-control. There is no law against such things. 24 And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. 25 If we live by the Spirit, let us also be guided by the Spirit.
 James 3:17 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV) 17  But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle,  willing to yield, full of mercy and good fruits, without a trace of  partiality or hypocrisy.   
 1 Corinthians 4:6 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV) 6 I have  applied all this to Apollos and myself for your benefit, brothers and  sisters,[a] so that you may learn through us the meaning of the saying,  “Nothing beyond what is written,” so that none of you will be puffed up  in favor of one against another.  
 Romans 12:3 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV) 3  For by the grace given to me I say to everyone among you not to think  of yourself more highly than you ought to think, but to think with sober  judgment, each according to the measure of faith that God has assigned. 
 Ephesians 4:29 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV) 
29 Let no evil talk come out of your mouths, but only what is useful for building up,[a] as there is need, so that your words may give grace to those who hear.
 There  are six things the Lord hates, seven that are detestable to him:  haughty eyes, a lying tongue, hands that shed innocent blood, a heart  that devises wicked schemes, feet that are quick to rush into evil, a  false witness who pours out lies and a person who stirs up conflict in  the community."
- Proverbs 6:16-19
Renewing of the mind #transformed

Finally, I find it ridiculous when people use the term self righteous, because there is no such thing;it is an oxymoron. It is an obvious sign that the person making the statement has been deceived using understanding of the flesh. This observation doesn’t make me judgemental, but rather discerning of “fruits”. If a person displays righteous behavior, it is a “fruit” of obedience and focus on the Holy Spirit, because righteousness cannot be produced from selfishness or absence from Christ. So tired of the cultural brainwashing and lies that motivate others to perceive everything as a competition; which defies the teaching of Christ. If I were in a competition, it would probably be something like Dancing with the Stars. 😉 I’m different, we’re all different. I am privy to things that no other person has experienced; including supernatural observance’ while dealing with particular circumstances and gifts obtained through suffering. Others will have their own profound encounters with lessons, because we were created as a body of individuals. The world doesn’t need millions of people that provide the same service or gifts; it would rob us of our value. Furthermore, it is a complete violation of spiritual boundaries, referred to as coveting in the Bible. Shaming another person for something you don’t possess is selfish too. Just because others appear more diligent does not mean they perceive themselves better, however, it is a tool of success and should indicate the exact opposite. Newsflash….. living with a chronic illness involves a requirement of consistently trying harder and perseverance. If I was already righteous in my own mind, I wouldn’t even spend effort seeking scripture and growth? Perception can be deception and the Bible describes how we develop a kingdom mindset as transformation. Confidence in Christ only produces a threat to those focused on things of the world. #ResistSatan #ChristianShaming People can be so double minded. Would they accuse a minister of being self-righteous? Probably just the opposite and point out their inadequacy? It’s a no win culture war and it needs to stop! Focus on Christ and your part in His plan should be our motive, instead of where the Bible instructs we have no business. Scripture warns that comparison is a thief and satan is the thief, so when you compare you are serving satan. Nobody can know Christ without investing time and energy. To assume knowing scripture would reflect superiority is irrational and foolish. I realize though that targets of scrutiny are in good company because they hated Jesus first and scripture warns of this happening.

By design I have always been an all or nothing individual and I am all in for Christ. If that makes me extreme then it affirms my diligence, because I never want to be a lukewarm Christian or lukewarm anything for that matter. Life is so ironic that being an actual Christian is extreme living. There is so much double mindedness and resentment thrown at those who thrive because of Christ; as if it is even possible without Christ? I sure don’t know how, but then I am only able to understand what I have encountered. Mediocrity is celebrated, while success is punished and coveted by the worldly standard. Transformation and conquering the devil is now popularly known as self righteous by those of little faith who believe a lie; that a life dependent on Christ is unattainable. I literally live and breathe Christ’ word and strength and will not be shamed into censoring my whole life experience. This type of faith requires a great deal of time spent suffering and affliction. You discover more value using time when living with limitations because time is a commodity that can’t be wasted. #GoBigOrGoDown #Winning #EmpathsFeelSoMisunderstood #ChristianShaming #BlessedAreThePureInHeart #ChooseFaith

 Look carefully then how you walk, not as unwise but as wise,
making the best use of the time, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the will of the Lord is.
Ephesians 5:15-17

In typical fashion Christ always uses the challenging moments for His good and inspires writing. So it is now obvious to viewers when I feel attacked. 😉 There is an abundance of relevant scripture that is applicable to life and especially the cyber influence that is happening.


Bondage To Medical Witchcraft

And So It Begins the fear mongering and conditioning.

I get so tired of the propaganda, fear mongering, and misinformation surrounding the safety of vaccines while so easily conforming to the worldly practices. I am very passionate about human biology, research, and believe God assigned me to work in pharmacy for nearly 15 years for a reason. God created our immune system for survival and is the One who ultimately decides when our time is finished here on earth. I want to encourage more initiative of understanding the God given miracle we have been given access and decrease blind faith in pharmakeia aka witchcraft.

We are sicker than ever as a society and the reasons become obvious when you actually understand the problems and apply the wisdom of the Lord. If you weren’t familiar with the term iatrogenic death, you had been missing a major concern and danger to your well being. In addition the terms “dirty genes” or “epigenetics” should mean something to you. We are being killed by idolatry of medicine. Our society arrogantly believes men in white coats and scientists know more about our bodies and can protect us better than our Awesome God. I know through experience this is not the case and Christ is faithful. Listen, I get it because it took me over 22 years of the conventional path and losing everything to be emptied and finally discover my devotion and determination to seeking something different. I have survived influenza b, pneumonia, shingles, and M.A.C. lung disease, to name just a few things, all while immune suppressed. I have been living in bondage to medicine for over 25 years and on a slow path to finding true healing. It certainly hasn’t been easy and it can be discouraging how long it is taking for recovery. It is a constant battle against the mainstream indoctrination and conditioning, however, it also explains the necessary obstacles, time, and preparation that needed to occur on the journey to true heath in hopes of overcoming the world. I would never violate another person’s sovereign ability to choose their path; my goal is to educate and get people interested in empowering themselves with knowledge, to allow informed consent of their health. I also realize it is a lot to take in for the average person and why I feel it is my responsibility to be of service, document, and share for others, so it isn’t so daunting of a task.

Iatrogenic Death is the 3rd leading cause of death

Chicken Pox (Varivax) – Shedding (Section 5.4)…/pi…/v/varivax/varivax_pi.pdf

Shingles (Zostavax} – Shedding (Section 5.2)…/pi…/z/zostavax/zostavax_pi2.pdf

MMR Shedding (Page 5, Under Precaution)…/pi_circulars/m/mmr_ii/mmr_ii_pi.pdf

Rotavirus (Rotarix)- Shedding (Section 5.4)…/documents/ROTARIX-PI-PIL.PDF

Smallpox (ACAM2000) – Shedding (Section 5.4)…/vac…/approvedProducts/UCM142572.pdf

Detection of Measles Virus RNA in Urine Specimen from Vaccine Recipients

The Emerging risks of live virus & virus vectored vaccines…/Live-Virus-Vaccines-and-Vaccine…

What’s shedding?…/secondary…/comment-page-1/

Flu (FluMist Intranasal) – Shedding (Section 5.4)…/Vac…/ApprovedProducts/UCM123743.pdf

The graphic here shows the majority of current live virus vaccines and the links to the package insert position that discusses shedding:

But does that REALLY happen? Yes. Yes it can and does as these studies illustrate:

Varicella transfer after vaccine to pregnant mom: ;

Pub Med article on Rotavirus shedding:

Mumps Vaccine sheds:

Mumps vaccine sheds:

Measles virus sheds for 1-13 days after vaccination: ;

Mumps outbreak in Netherlands linked to those vaccinated twice with MMR:

Measles vaccinated child responsible for outbreak in British Columbia:…/EE/V18N49/art20649.pdf

New York Measles outbreak linked to vaccinated:…/2014/02/27/cid.ciu105

Measles outbreak among the vaccinated:

We don’t know for certain how long shedding occurs because we don’t test for it long term or regularly but in rare instances, it has gone on for years:…/story…/story.html

Additionally, the Dtap/Tdap that is NOT live vaccine has been shown by the FDA to cause the vaccinated to become asymptomatic carriers whenever exposed to the bacteria for both pertussis and diphtheria, thus spreading the illness without knowing

Pertussis carrier:…/PressAnnouncements/ucm376937.htm

Diphtheria carrier:

You can also find that most medical facilities are aware of this. Johns Hopkins and St. Jude hospitals are just a few of many who post precautions for recently vaccinated visitors as pictured. Check out the chicken pox vaccine sign as well.

Vaccines spread disease.

Pertussis lives in the throats of the recently vaccinated, making them asymptomatic carriers who can (and do) spread the disease:…/PressAnnouncements/ucm376937.htm

Rotavirus vaccine fecal shedding:…/pii/S0264410X11004567

Transmission of Vaccine Derived Polio Virus

Polio shedding:

Transmission of vaccine derived mumps:

More vaccine mumps transmission:

Transmission of vaccine derived varicella:

More transmission of vaccine varicella:

Varicella shedding:

More rotavirus shedding:
(All sources from FDA or Pubmed)

Fear can be an ultimate teacher if you are willing to learn from the best teacher; which is the Bible. Fear also reveals who or what we depend upon. The Bible’s teachings have so much to say about fear and none of it is good or something to answer to. Choose this day whom you will serve and I pray it will never start or end in fear.

Matthew 10:26 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)
Whom to Fear
26 “So have no fear of them; for nothing is covered up that will not be uncovered, and nothing secret that will not become known.
Where does your knowledge come from?

Incurable Faith

Holistic Health Explained

I often have this recurring thought, you don’t know what you don’t know. I know health because I know illness and my struggles have lead me on a journey to learning and incredible spiritual growth. I have also discovered health care has nothing to do with actual health and that the government should not have any control of the debacle; which they know nothing about. Not only did I work in “health care”, specifically pharmacy, for nearly 15 years, I have currently experienced the industry extensively for over 25 years dealing with my chronic illness. If it was effective I would not be sick for over half of my existence and experience the progression of disease, which has included Neurosarcoidosis,Primary Immune Deficiency, I.T.P, G.E.R.D, and C.O.P.D to diagnose parts of the multiplying dysfunctions. I have survived over 25 years of conventional medicine because I have boldly chosen to seek Christ and rely on faith to direct my decisions and it didn’t happen overnight or doing what was typical. From the beginning of my illness the treatments never made sense, however, like most people I had to learn the hard way. It took time and patience to break free from the status quo. Experience has always been the best teacher. If I had remained on the conventional medicine course I would be dead and I am not being over dramatic either. I can recall several critical moments, however, 2012 was when it became imperative the need to change course. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing and expecting different results. Even now, still being severely immune suppressed the last 6 years, you recognize the miracle of living and the obvious understanding that God ultimately decides when our mission is accomplished and our earthly term is finished. Our unknowing is limitless and provides for a thirst for understanding. The Bible instructs that if you cling to life you will lose it and explains a lot about my journey. We are body and spirit, yet often forget how they are connected.

John 3:6 New International Version (NIV)
Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit[a] gives birth to spirit.

Mark 5:26 New International Version (NIV)
26 She had suffered a great deal under the care of many doctors and had spent all she had, yet instead of getting better she grew worse.

Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.

The first Biblical principle that has been ingrained is to try and honor my body as a temple. Nothing about medication honors our body and actually goes completely against it by manipulating the God given biologic chemistry. If you’ve ever read all the potential side effects for the common drugs and think there is anything life giving, you’ve been conditioned by the world. The author of death,stealing, and destruction is satan. You don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone; then you try and find it. We have inherited a mysterious and divine body upon birth. The Bible is the manual but we have been conditioned to believe it operates on auto pilot. Disease isn’t a random or unexplained occurrence; it’s just learning human biology hasn’t been a priority in society. Also ego likes to insist we don’t make mistakes. I have always had a passion for health but unfortunately or fortunately it took developing a chronic illness to become almost obsessed with understanding what is hidden. Since nearly approaching the 4th year anniversary of developing influenza b, that would become the ending of my employment and beginning of the unknown, it has been my mission to conquer my health and figure out how my current situation is part of a process and preparing for something more, that couldn’t be seen from where I was left. This world is filled with deception and nearsightedness. The Bible acts as spiritual glasses for clarity in a world filled with darkness. I’m constantly amazed how easily people ingest substances or foods despite potential consequences that apparently my body screams loudly to. Besides for my insight on endocrine disruptor’s and alcohol being in that category, I can’t think of a single advantage to drinking alcohol, in fact, just the opposite, it stimulates insulin in the body which in turn creates inflammation. I’ve learned that inflammation is my enemy!

” It can be extremely easy to live a life of comfort. A life in which the choices we make are made solely based on what is easiest, benefits us quickest, and is most convenient. Be assured that a life that is truly lived includes many of the following: bumps, laughter, bruises, joy, discomfort, success, heartache. Often times, where you want to be is not where you are called to be. Going where you are called is certainly not always pleasant or perfect but it is always beautiful and good.” ~Sidewalk Prophets 3/25/19#thesesimpletruthstour #swpfamily #beencouraged

Living with an invisible illness enlightens you to the major deception you must face living. The deception comes from everywhere and everyone; including many doctors. It requires having strong communication skills with an ability to convey symptoms that at times seem unusual, even peculiar, to those who have never lived it. The forsaken reality is, seeing is believing and not seeing is not believing. It is why I eventually started documenting my very unique, or as doctors remarked, my complex case. As I look back and read my medical records the gratitude sinks deeper of the strength and perseverance that has accompanied this battle which can’t be seen. The characteristics you obtain on this journey are priceless and the cost is great but the value is greater; which often seems unnoticed by the rest of the world sometimes. Invisible illness has revealed learning deeper truths in every area of life, but particularly the curiosity of the soul and it’s Creator.

Valentine’s Epiphany

Believing in Love Again
When I was a child I enjoyed Valentines day

For me Valentine’s day was a holiday I celebrated and enjoyed as a child; where you bought or made greetings to put in a decorated mailbox and send to every boy and girl in your class. As an adult it lost it’s flavor because it represented shallow displays of affection like flowers,chocolate, and romance; which seemed to lack the kind of Love with substance that I had come to understand and desire.

Corinthians 13:4-7 New Living Translation (NLT)

4 Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud 5 or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. 6 It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. 7 Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

Although the timing wasn’t planned, I found myself ending my relationship with my ex-fiance on Valentine’s day 1995 and then another guy I had dated a week before Valentine’s day 2004, when I discontinued dating all together. I believe now that it was a result of this particular season emphasizing the disconnect between the Love I felt and the limited capacity my previous relationships offered. It was a time when I lost interest in continuing to go through the motions and decided I was no longer interested in the stale kind of love that lacked boundaries and was readily available. After my ex-fiance finally got married in April 2012 I started having conflicting thoughts that maybe I had been holding out for something that didn’t exist in this world? As a result I started carrying this burden that I had possibly made a mistake and my standards were unrealistic.

It was February 14, 2015 when all that changed and all because of a movie.

It was a Saturday and I was on my way to a hair appointment when I was listening to K-LOVE Radio and heard the advertisement for the movie audio trailer. I was instantly intrigued and when I returned home I started searching online for movie information. It was probably an hour later I was on my way to go see Old Fashioned. It was must see for me and I do not attend movies on a regular basis. This movie pulled on my heart strings and mysteriously released me from uncertainty about my past. I am forever in love with this movie!

So 2015 was the beginning of letting go of the past in virtually every aspect of my life. This little indie movie somehow managed to release something deep inside my soul and challenged me to come out from hiding my “different” heart at just the right time. It has continued to provide support and profoundly relatable insight into my journey. It even allowed me to travel approximately 8 hours to New Philadelphia, Ohio, solo again after 25 years, for a fan gathering to watch the movie in October and explore where it was filmed. I also had the privilege of meeting the creator/maker of this beautiful story and many others involved in it’s production. As a result of the facebook fan page I have been connected to a community who shares my values and soul; it carries me through and encourages. My heart and identity belongs to everything that “Old Fashioned” represents. So many details of the movie hold memories that compliment my life. As I was again watching the film I was struck again as I watched the scene where Amber and Clay discussed the movie “Sleepless in Seattle”. I watched the movie 25 years ago with my ex-fiance in Mobile,Alabama on the trip that I got engaged to him. I could go on and on about subtle triggers in the movie that provoked familiar feelings of home.

Your identity will be tied to whatever you give your heart to.” ~The Kendrick Brothers

Movie ticket for viewing in New Philadelphia, Ohio at the Quaker Theater

I love how this movie has inspired me to believe in love again! It has brought new meaning to Valentine’s day for me. At this point I honestly have no idea if I will end up finding another individual to share my heart with in this world but I am able to Love from my whole heart for the first time and it feels wonderful to live, Love, and enjoy Valentine’s day again! “Old Fashioned” is so much more than a movie, it is a movement! A movement of simplicity,authenticity,purity,depth, and grace.

Social Insecurity

With the partial government shutdown and absence of those impacted not receiving a paycheck spreading over the mainstream news, it has revealed a crises in society on many levels. It is a crises that begins with a spiritual void and results in entitlement,gluttony,idolatry, and most importantly lack of wisdom, sacrifice, and responsibility. It exposes a government dependency that has been manufactured by very weak people who have submitted their power to an idol.

As a conservative who has always supported limited government with my vote, it angers me but also reveals something deeper in myself; that I can be grateful for. You see, I have been in a battle with the bureaucracy of social security disability for nearly 3 years, with no substantial income. I worked and had social security taken from my checks for approximately 29 years and after the progression of my chronic illness and losing my job, the government gets to decide whether I qualify to have my money returned when I am unable to maintain employment? I have endured over 25 years with neurosarcoidosis; several episodes with brain lesions which have left me with residual nystagmus and occasional verbal deficiency from previous 2.5 inch brain lesion that caused aphasia, over 22 years of immune suppression and chemo drugs resulting in secondary immune deficiency, I.T.P., C.O.P.D., S.I.B.O., cholengitis with gall bladder removal, and chronic kidney stones with 10 kidney stone operations presently. I have managed to reverse secondary hypothyroid being diligent and prioritizing health concepts that work would compromise. Still after all this evidence I am denied having any limitations that would impair my ability to work by government standards? It is business as usual for the government run nightmare and nobody gives a second thought about those at their most vulnerable time who are unexpectedly inflicted with this battle. Yet God forbid some federal worker might have to wait for a paycheck or not have to work and get paid for an undetermined amount of time. Last time I checked, this is the reality of life for all! Somehow politics gets to determine that federal workers are an exception to the unexpected reality of life? By the way, it is all propaganda because I recently learned GOVERNMENT WORKERS CAN GET THEIR PAYROLL FROM THEIR LOCAL BANK BY SHOWING THEIR FEDERAL ID!!!! THE LOAN IS INTEREST FREE AND WILL BE PAID BACK BY THE FEDERAL GOVERNMENT ONCE IT REOPENS. What a deal!

There are many people who do not have the luxury of a steady income; any entrepreneur work like farming, writing, coaching, musicians, or home business’ depend on many factors to receive a profit. Nothing in life is guaranteed; not even your ability to perform. At any moment you could end up with an illness or victim to an accident preventing you from making money. We are at the mercy of the universe and why we need a Savior. The government does not have any exclusive rights to resource’. It is why there are religious organizations that provide charity available. When the government claims this type of power over people it is also taking it away from Christ. The Bible explains satan as a thief and therefore satan is clearly active in the government.

 John 10:10 New International Version (NIV) 10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

It is quite unbelievable to me that there are people who do not have the basic insight on how to live effectively; standards like not spending money you don’t have, sacrificing for things you want,saving and stewardship of giving your first fruits. Life is all about planting; it doesn’t take much to produce a harvest when you sow into the Lord. The most I have ever made was $27,000 annually when I had a good year and it was an exception. On top of that my average health care expense was typically $5000 annually. If you have never practiced these principles, you wouldn’t know how effective they are. It takes a step of faith but too many cling to comfort and turn to fear when it is lost. Fear is a trap to compromise and selling out to satan and this is where we are in society. It is impossible to have a full life when in bondage to the government. I am so blessed to understand this; so many are lost and eager to become powerless. Living paycheck to paycheck is a choice of bondage and irresponsible. Less truly is more! There is freedom and power in discipline and not conforming to the world. The best thing we can do is deny ourselves.

Good stewardship leads to flourishing, which is characterized by well-being, thriving, and abundance. It is the way God created all things before the fall, as well as what he will restore when Christ returns. In the parable of the talents, Jesus teaches that everyone is to maximize the gifts that he is given in order to contribute to the flourishing of the world (Matt. 25:14-30).

It should be no mystery how God provides in my time of need. In fact, I would have never even realized His faithfulness and provision had I never been put into this challenging situation. I cannot emphasize enough the privilege I have had growing up with a purpose driven grandfather and having the Biblical wisdom instilled into my world. My grandfathers legacy is the gift that keeps on giving. Not only am I able to live in the house he built to shelter me but I have the amazing values and wisdom that has been the foundation of my soul. Life giving lessons based on the “Laws of Reciprocity”, service, learning, and setting myself apart from the desires of this world. I learned early on that less is truly more. It’s strange how basic principles like these are lost on so many. Life comes down to choice’s and in an unpredictable world we should have the freedom to accept the consequence of our choice’s. They are indeed what shape us into the depth of our character and strengthen us. Christ is the only thing that results in strength when we are weak; the government is incapable of that power.

When hard pressed, I cried to the Lord; he brought me into a spacious place. The Lord is with me; I will not be afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?Psalm 118:5-6NIV

I can’t help but recognize the path of purpose that God has lead me on and suspect that somehow He wants to use me to expose government and transform it to it’s original intent? Why does the Lord give me such impossible goals? LOL I can’t help but reflect on the preparation and influences. The fact that my favorite Bible verse has always been Phil. 4:13 since early on should be a clue.

Philippians 4:13 New International Version (NIV)
13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength.

Inspired By Illness

You haven’t lived until you have had a “Sanford and Son” moment; “Grandpa I’m coming to join you.” and I’ve had several dealing with sarcoidosis for over 24 years. Fasting lesson learned; carbonation can kill when you have GERD damage and have been abstaining from food for over 24 hours. I have practiced intermittent fasting for about two years and usually avoid carbonation, so this was a fail and valuable lesson. #Eat2Live not #Live2Eat
I suppose it could have been the works of a sarcoidosis demon, however, I have obsessed about God and the divine human creation enough to recognize that air builds up from stomach acid and will escape into the esophagus when your stomach flap is broken and does not shut (also known as gerd). If it builds up enough it will block breathing airways by forming a barrier of gases, until it is released. I was lying awake in my bed and all of a sudden I started gasping trying to take in air with no success. Internal suffocation released……. and ER visit avoided. First thing I did was grab the bottle of peppermint oil on my night stand and inhaled both nostrils; I then went to the kitchen and took a sip of ice tea from my refrigerator and VOILA…. a cascade of gas escapes like a waterfall.
I hate to seem preachy but i have been conditioned to be a problem solver and purpose driven. If everyone invested in understanding God and our physical bodies, the natural result would naturally be reduced health care costs. It can be irritating to watch so many people take their health for granted and live as if we are entitled to health; there would be no illness if that were the case. Medicine is NOT one size fits all and neither are our bodies. When you realize how much you are truly Loved by Christ your desire becomes to protect your divine assets, so you are able to perform at your best. Despite how hard I try, I can’t help but feel like such a failure sometimes because of my afflictions. Yet because of them I experience even more Love from my Savior. Sarcoidosis brings out the best in me and it is Christ. Thank you Lord for all the overtime work!
Most conventional medicine is quackery and goes against the divine design. Ignorance is not bliss, it can destroy. There is a reason Natural/Holistic practitioners are referred to as Functional Medicine Doctors because the alternate is dysfunction. My intent is not to bash regular physicians because I don’t believe it is intentional; just deception that runs very deep in the broken medical culture. I also believe that modern medicine has become a false idol.
Special thanks to my Heavenly Father, Dad who referred me to Robert Scott Bell and the ripple affect beyond to a plethora of holistic Dr.s actually giving tools to fix problems and heal the way God intended and designed us all. Mock away because I am a living and breathing sacrifice and miracle. So I boast in my weakness! What doesn’t kill you definitely makes you wiser and stronger through Christ.

Single Because

Single Because

So I find it interesting and misguided the fascination that married people have with single people? Although I realize the sentiment isn’t necessarily malice, it is in itself peculiar to ask “Why are you single?” I have wondered should I be asking couples “Why are you married?” SMH , I don’t know, it just never occurred to me to wonder about another persons path and choices in life? I wasn’t aware that we were all on the same path and had the same goals in life? Where did I go wrong; I don’t think I have? Maybe if I somehow felt equipped to plan my life in this broken world and see everything and know all, it might be an option? Maybe it is because I’m a perfectionist, so naturally I am seeking and trusting the only perfect, constant, and truth in life that I know; which is the creator and designer of my life and others.
So to explain: I am single because I do not have an agenda in this world. I humbly realize Gods plans and timing are so much better than my own. I know this because I have taken my time and practiced patience; which the Bible promotes! Patience is a virtue and we become what we seek. Secondly, why is it assumed that if you are not married, it is a must have? Sadly the worldly idea of marriage does not intrigue me at all. I am 43 and know several people my age that have been married and divorced twice by now; this alone should cause people to question timing of marriage and that it should not be rushed? Maybe, just maybe, I was meant to be like Paul and single? I have no idea because I never got those specific plans that apparently the rest of the married people received? lol I’m thankful I have always been able to embrace my path and choose the less traveled road and I haven’t done it on my own. Typically in past relationships they distracted me from my relationship with God, which is a big red flag. All I know is that I guess I’m lazy and want God to figure it out for me? 😉 I also sometimes wonder if desiring marriage so badly could actually lead to spiritual coveting; which is not a choice that God allows my heart to make. There are so many scriptures that speak to me in my singleness.

1 Corinthians 13:4-5New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)

4 Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant 5 or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful;

If you seek Love in a marriage, you better be patient since Love is patient! Maybe that is a major difference in what I seek? I am not seeking marriage, I seek Love, and honestly I don’t feel void of it being single. If you aren’t able to experience Love while single, you will never be able to give any to receive and doing it wrong. I experience great love from friends, family, and even others I’ve never met or seen. Love is spiritual and too many focus on the physical it seems?
My theory is, if you focus on what you don’t have, you will miss what you have. So I am focusing on what I have in Christ and sincerely grateful.

Ecclesiastes 6:9New Living Translation (NLT)

9 Enjoy what you have rather than desiring what you don’t have. Just dreaming about nice things is meaningless—like chasing the wind.

Maybe, just maybe, I have something being single that most people can’t see and it’s called faith, hope, and Love and it’s more than enough for me!