Organized Brain

Your Brain is Organized

You like a lot of structure in your life, and you’re good at getting things in order.
You have a good eye for details, and you are excellent at following difficult directions.

You are a natural planner, and you always feel a bit lost if you don’t have a plan drawn up.
You like to have a routine and stick to it. Chaos stresses you out.

Darkness Meets Light

BeTheChange You don’t wait for others to set the tone, you lead by example and have an affinity for helping others. With your personal mantra, ” Be the change you wish to see in the world,” your ultimate goal in life is to make the world a kinder and more habitable place for all.

In this moment I realize why I am a “night owl” ; when the majority of the world is in slumber I find the most peace and calm energy. I’ve always had this ability for energy to encompass me. It’s almost as if I have a stronger and less congested connection to God in the darkness; which actually makes complete sense because God is Light! Of course He would shine in the dark! It is in these moments I find so many thoughts of Heaven in my head, when the rest of the world is in their bed. I discovered another label for myself: Christian Hedonist ( I truly find Joy in Jesus and His word ) I so just want so desperately to know I am serving Him in my employment. Why does this seem to be so unattainable in the world? I also know that is why God has allowed my situation with my health to transpire the way it has recently. It has allowed me to detach from work in a dramatic way and recognize the way my job has been perpetuating all my health issues and draining me spiritually too. I’ve also most recently discovered how I fit with passionate and purpose driven people; it’s all or nothing in my world clearly. I miss working with those types of people! The things you can learn about yourself late at night. Well if anybody happens to have any words of wisdom or insight to share, it’s the reason I am putting it out there. I am a learner and a seeker of wisdom and goodness who realizes my flaw in chasing perfection. Well goodnight all or Good Morning! Today is another day to find me.

Not Alright 2006

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I don’t discuss my illness very often because it doesn’t define me and fortunately it typically doesn’t appear very obvious on the outside: it simply reveals all the amazing and miraculous ways God heals and protects. Just yesterday my brother was reflecting with me about the time he lived in California and thought he might be coming home to my funeral. It took me a little while to figure out which episode he was referring to? lol ( it was 2006) I wrote about my experience:

Well I spent the last week in Loyola Hospital and got home Good Friday (was it ever, Praise Be To God!). It all started Sunday April 9, 2006’. I had gone to church feeling great and everyone telling me how great and energetic I appeared and in a matter of 3 hours after preparing for bed I was completely out of it. I couldn’t remember any phone numbers so I headed to the car door first with much difficulty. After having trouble unlocking the car door, I then tried the house door with no success. So it was back to try the car door again. Somehow my angels got me into the car and over to my uncles house around 1 am; by a miracle my uncle awoke. I was unable to speak. He immediately called my mother and told her to “get there now” They then proceeded to take me into Loyola. I was diagnosed with a 2 and 1/2inch lesion in the left side of my brain, which is responsible for communication. It was my 5th episode and one of the scariest. I was incoherent and couldn’t remember my families or doctor’s names or much of anything. I had aphasia; Satan was after one of my greatest gifts to destroy me because I had been creating way too much good in this world. By the 12th the speech therapist were insisting I have mandatory speech therapy. God conquered and I have come back or at least well on my way and I passed all the tests they gave me on Friday. They dropped the notion of therapy for now. I have been on very aggressive immune-suppressive therapy (4 to be exact ) and it has shrunk the sarcoidosis lesions. When I was in the hospital I had the best nurses and techs; one even fed to me spiritually and said that she saw that I was blessed. I don’t take my blessings for granted by any means. It is one of the reasons I am compelled to use my voice and communication skills; it also explains my desire to take all these tests  that involve writing/words skills such as spelling,grammar and vocabulary. Every time I achieve a very high score I am praising my Lord and Savior; I am not trying to boast about my abilities apart from God.

The song that sure does speak to me right now is by Sanctus Real/ I’m not alright
Chorus I’m not alright, I’m broken inside, broken inside
and all I go through leads me to you
and Plumb
In the end what leaves you broken, makes you better

Gods Cheerleader

Every time I get really sick it always seems to lead me back to my first Love. So more than ever my heart calls out for purpose and passion for service and my Redeemer. I think it should be obvious on social media and most anybody can recognize my heart lead by truth and overcoming. And yes I take the very long road to my desire and heart. So tonight as I was going through different employment options; Pastoral care tugged at my heart and I thought I would inquire and try to expand my credentials, that can only strengthen and help me in any prospective future plans God has designed me for. I was just reflecting on this spiritual gifts assessment provided by The Rock Church that I did 8 years ago. I would really kind of like to get some feedback if possible? What is God up to with me? I desperately want to know because I always seem to hear that voice from the enemy telling me why I am so unqualified. I’ll never forget a quote from a Rebecca St. James concert back around 1998 that I went to: “Jesus doesn’t call the qualified, He qualifies the called” So I am asking my beautiful and truthful friends to help shed some light on my darkness. Thanks!

Prophet/Perceiver

The God-given ability to communicate God’s message in relation to the truth already revealed
(Jude 3). It is not necessarily or even primarily a prediction. Rather, it is done for the purposes
of encouraging, strengthening and comforting (1 Cor. 14:3). These have the ability to perceive
the spiritual needs of others and meet those needs through Scripture.
Characteristics of a Prophet / Perceiver:
1. Able to recognize good and bad and hates what is bad
2. Sees everything clearly not dimly; no foggy or indefinite areas
3. Recognizes character in people, whether good or bad
4. Encourages repentance for the glory of God
5. Is an introvert rather than an extravert
6. Sees the Bible as the foundation for truth
7. Courageously holds to spiritual truths
8. Outspoken
9. Powerful and persuasive speaker
10. Distraught over the sins of others
11. Sees their own shortcomings and those of others
12. Desires to see God’s plans take place
13. Promotes spiritual growth in others
14. Fanatical about integrity
15. Strongly communicates what they perceive
16. Self examiner
17. Opinionated and holds to convictions
18. Holds to a high standard
19. Desperately desires to obey God
Challenges of the Prophet/Perceiver:
1. May be judgmental and upfront
2. Delights in goal accomplishment not forward progress
3. Forcefully pushes others toward spiritual growth
4. Intolerant of other views
5. Struggles with self image
Places in the church body where this gift could be utilized
1. Small group leader
2. Any type of lay counseling
3. Security at any church function
4. Providing oversight of any ministry function
5. Great mentors and peacemakers
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Server
A server has the God-given ability to recognize a need and administer assistance to others. In
relation to other believers, this releases them to utilize their God-given gifts (e.g. Deacons in
Acts 6:1-6; 1 Corinthians 12:28; and Romans 12:7).
Characteristics of a Server:
1. Willingly meets the needs of others
2. Has a hands on approach
3. Precise and orderly
4. Detail oriented
5. Friendly
6. Has trouble turning others away
7. More interest in others than self
8. More short term orientated than long term
9. Actively expressive rather than verbally expressive
10. Desires appreciation
11. Goes above and beyond what is asked of them
12. Enjoys being helpful
13. High energy level
14. Orderly, does not like clutter
15. Perfectionist
16. Places an importance on serving
17. Would rather do than delegate
18. Supports the leadership
Challenges for the Server
1. Criticizes those who are not serving
2. Helps others to the extent of neglecting personal family
3. So enthusiastic to help, may come across as pushy
4. Does not like to be served
5. Saddened when unappreciated
Places in the church body where this gift could be utilized
1. Hospitality ministry
2. Children’s ministry
3. Homeless ministry
4. Taking meals to ill or injured
5. Set-up or tear down at special events
7. Serving anywhere, anytime, anyway
8. Construction of any type
9. Maintenance of anything
10. Putting together anything with the hands
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Teacher
The God-given ability to study, research, explain and communicate truth (e.g. Paul and
Timothy in 2 Timothy 2:2).
Characteristics of a Teacher:
1. Logical presenter of truth
2. Confirms truth by examining facts
3. Enjoys study and investigation
4. Knows how to do word studies
5. Uses biblical illustrations
6. Detests Scripture used out of context
7. Establishes truth biblically
8. Objective rather than subjective
9. Extensive vocabulary
10. Accurate presenter of truth
11. Tests the information of others
12. Favors teaching over evangelism
13. Starts with Scripture when answering questions
14. Intellectual
15. Disciplined
16. Emotionally stable
17. Has a close circle of friends
18. Strong convictions based on solid research
19. Believes God’s truth leads to life change
Challenges for the Teacher
1. Can neglect application in exchange for information download
2. Slow to accept views of other
3. Prideful due to knowledge
4. May be legalistic and dogmatic
5. Easily distracted by love of new interests
Places in the church body where this gift could be utilized
1. Small group leader
2. Bible study leader – Men’s ministry, Women’s ministry, Children’s ministry
3. Rock U instructor
4. Research assistant
5. Developer of curriculum
6. Child, youth, teen mentor
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Exhorter
The God-given ability to draw near to individuals in time of need; encouraging and
counseling them accurately with the Word of God; and persuading them to take courage in
the face of something they must do or assuring them to take comfort because of something
that has occurred (E.g. Barnabas in Acts 4:36-37; 9:26-27; 11:19-26; and 15:36-41).
Characteristics of a Exhorter:
1. Verbally encouraging
2. Likes to apply the Word rather than investigate it
3. Prefers practical application over theological truth
4. Works best with others
5. Verbally encourages others to excel in ministry
6. Loves to do personal counseling
7. Loves to talk
8. Excels in communication
9. Perceives trials as opportunities for personal growth
10. Has a positive attitude
11. Easily makes decisions
12. Prefers to quickly resolve problems
13. Needs to bounce ideas off others
Challenges for the Exhorter
1. Frequently interrupts others
2. Uses Scripture out of context
3. Out spoken and opinionated
4. Slightly overconfident
Places in the church body where this gift could be utilized
1. Lay counseling
2. Stephen minister
3. Table facilitator
4. Hospitality ministry
5. Drama ministry
6. Nursing home ministry
7. Homeless Ministry Team
8. Small group leader
9. Anyplace where encouragement is needed
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Giver
The God-given ability to give freely of what God has entrusted to them. This includes giving
time, material goods and financial resources with joy and eagerness and without any “ulterior
motives” that would benefit the giver (E.g. David in I Chronicles 29:1-19).
Characteristics of the Giver:
1. Gives as led by the Spirit
2. Freely and happily gives
3. Often gives anonymously
4. Understands giving is an intricate part of serving
5. Takes pleasure in meeting the needs of others
6. Gives not only quantity but quality
7. Gives to bless and enhance ministries
8. Sees hospitality as a chance to give
9. Financially wise
10. Strongly believes in tithes and offerings
11. Understands that God owns everything
12. Strong business skills
13. Appreciates value
14. Is not gullible
Challenges for the Giver:
1. Tends to be controlling with money
2. Pressures others to be more generous
3. May over commit
4. Uses financial giving as a way out of other requirements
5. Leads others on guilt trips
Places in the church body where this gift could be utilized
1. Homeless ministry
2. Small group leader
3. Fundraising
4. Any serving opportunity
5. Hospitality ministry
6. Financial counseling ministry Team
7. Support of church special projects (I.E. building)
8. Financially support any ministry
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Leadership/Administration
The God-given ability to lead others in meaningful endeavors which demonstrates personal
care and concern in order to meet the needs of others and encourage their growth (E.g.
fathers in I Tim. 3:4-5; 12).
Characteristics of Leadership / Administration:
1. Motivates others to action
2. Clearly communicates
3. Thrives when given authority
4. Happily receives authority when given
5. Naturally assumes leadership when there is a lack
6. Takes on long-term projects
7. Is a visionary
8. Has good networking abilities
9. Delegates well
10. Takes criticism well
11. Is passionate and enthusiastic
12. Enjoys accomplishing goals
13. Gives credit to others
14. Meets challenges as they arise
15. Is a natural and capable leader
16. Understands the Big picture
17. Discards what does not work keeps what does
18. Enjoys people
19. Dislikes the mundane routine
Challenges for the Leader/Administrator
1. May have trouble dealing with opposition
2. May become callous due to constant criticism
3. Pushes hard to the point of neglecting family
4. Ignores family responsibilities due to love of work
Places in the church body where this gift could be utilized
1. Small group leader
2. Jr. High ministry
3. High School ministry
4. College ministry
5. Singles ministry
6. Prison ministry
7. Any type of leadership/oversight role
8. Creator of new ministries
9. Coach of Sports ministries
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Mercy/Compassion
The God-given ability to have immediate compassion for those who are suffering
combined with great joy in meeting their needs (E.g. the Good Samaritan in Luke 10:30-
37).
Characteristics of Mercy/Compassion:
1. Loves to love
2. Searches out the good in people
3. Brings out the good in people
4. Recognizes the spiritual and emotional condition of others
5. Acts out of concern for others
6. Cares for the emotional, spiritual, and physical well being of others
7. Considers others more important than self
8. Chooses words carefully
9. Recognizes the affect words can have
10. Detects insincerity
11. Loves to be thoughtful
12. Is trustworthy
13. Non confrontational
14. Unusually cheerful
15. Thinks with the heart rather than the head
16. Rejoices and/or grieves with others
Challenges for the Mercy/Compassion:
1. Overly sensitive
2. Caring may be misunderstood by the opposite sex
3. Easily takes up others problems that are not their own
4. Thinking with their heart leads to indecision
5. Can be easily hurt by others unintentionally
Places in the church body where this gift could be utilized
1. Small group leader
2. Homeless ministry
3. Counseling ministry
4. Hospitality of any sort
5. Visitation and follow-up
6. Prison ministry
7. Greeters
8. Any type of phone work
9. Children’s ministry
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IMPORTANT REMINDERS
Keep in mind that oftentimes the Holy Spirit gives us more than one gift which serves to
keep our other gift (gifts) in check or harmonize to create a blended gift that God uses in
unique ways. This is another reason why each and everyone of us has a unique role to play
in the Kingdom even if your gift may seem just like someone else you know!
1. Scripture commands us to minister in many areas whether or not we have the
corresponding spiritual gift. For example Scripture clearly tells us that some have
the following gifts, yet all are to minister in these ways…
Gifts to some Commands to all
Ministering (serving) Serve one another (Galatians 5:13)
Exhortation Exhort each other (Hebrews 10:25)
Giving All give (2 Corinthians 9:7)
Teaching Make Disciples (Matthew 28:19)
Showing Mercy Be kind (Ephesians 4:32)
Faith Walk by faith (2 Corinthians 5:7)
Evangelism All witness (Acts 1:8)
Oftentimes as we are faithful to these commands, we discover our
particular spiritual gift(s).
2. No matter what spiritual gift(s) we have received, the Christian virtue of love
must accompany the exercise of those gifts; otherwise, they will prove unfruitful.
“If I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but do not have love, I have
become a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. And if I have the gift of prophecy, and
know all mysteries and all knowledge; and if I have all faith, so as to remove
mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. And if I give all my possessions to
feed the poor, and if I deliver my body to be burned, but do not have love, it profits
me nothing.” 1 Corinthians 13:1-3
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CONCLUSION
Your God-given personality, talents, abilities and spiritual gifts all work together to make
you uniquely you!
“Whoever serves is to do so as one who is serving by the strength which God supplies; so
that in all things God may be glorified through Jesus Christ, to whom belongs the glory
and dominion forever and ever. Amen.” 1 Peter 4:11
The Difference between Gifts and Talents
Talents have to do with techniques and methods; gifts have to do with spiritual abilities.
Talents depend on natural ability, gifts on spiritual endowment. Talents instruct, inspire, or
entertain on a natural level. However, when a gift is exercised, something supernatural
happens in and through the one who is ministering.
Talent Gift
Source Common grace of the spirit Special grace of the spirit
Time Given Present from natural birth Present from new birth
Nature Natural ability Spiritual endowment
Purpose Instruction, entertainment,
inspiration on a natural level
Spiritual growth of saints,
Christian service
The Rock would like to encourage you to join us in “Boot Camp” where we devote one
whole week on this very topic while offering an extended question and answer time on this
exciting topic. Whatever you do, don’t use any confusion you may have about Spiritual
gifts keep you from engaging in ministry. Where ever God has drawn your interest is a
great indicator of where He wants you to serve and where you will get to see you gift or
gifts in action!

Back to Broken Reality

When you are going through a chronic and serious illness, the shallowness of the world really  brings you down. Many of my authentic followers of Christ will understand this and have even written about it as well. I thought I had found mutual understanding in a group that was based on the movie “Old Fashioned” , however, and very sadly at this point, the direction changed or I finally recognized the hearts of some members. I guess once again I am putting up my brick wall? No…,.. in my defense and the character Clay I am guarding my heart. I am using my time wisely; it is not optional when you are living like you are dying and I’m not trying to be over dramatic either. Time is way too precious to allow superficial and fake people to damage your soul further. More and more the word “Love” is all about “ME” and what I need to seek? I just don’t follow that kind of warped disingenuous love. I am also realizing how much I value my married friends; it’s like I’m single with a married soul. It makes sense because I am truly committed to my relationship with my Lord first and staying out of the way of my lack of grace at points. I don’t know but in the wedding vows:  what God has joined together means He does the work. I just have never felt the need to seek what only my creator who designed me knows and His plans and timing. When you become one with God, only then can you be one with another person? I see my married friends as one, I really do! I respect them both in their relationships and value authentic Love that they reciprocate. When you have a pure heart you are kind of like a kid only with boundaries and pure intentions. I am learning once again how people misuse words. Intentional is not the same as manipulative or calculated to me, it is closer to being selfless I think than anything? In everything I do I try and let Jesus do His thing in me; also Shine His light which will attract a similar soul. I think it is working fabulous so far; no regrets, most of them just happen to be married or children. That is why I work hard to do and be what God asks me to be; it’s not my vision or timing. If Satan tries to destroy it, I will still have God, dignity and some quite amazing authentic friends that have invested in my life and I in theirs. I don’t care what you call it, dating or courting, all that matters is Loving and friendship; it is always constant. It is obvious I don’t buy in to the romance thing either; I find it pretty pretentious, unless it is truly planned by the book of the Bible and not the usual book of love, however, I am a champion for Love gone right! I think some very simple things like a photo booth picture from the 1940’s of my grandparents is romantic. But lets face it, what do I know? My answer would hopefully be Jesus. My grandma and grandpa didn’t show physical affection; we never hugged or kissed, it was an unspoken Love with actions that have lasted beyond death. They created two children, so it is not as if they never had physical intimacy; it was just something sacred. Often when I reflect all the sacrifices they have made for me and my security, I want so deeply for them to know how grateful I am for the memories and lessons. Now that’s Old Fashioned! I guess I needed a good cry tonight? If it weren’t for Jesus Christ I wouldn’t know  genuine Love.grandparentsphotobooth1

Old Fashioned Timing

Nates Sr. Prom 1992

Nates Sr. Prom 1992


So as I have written in my story in previous posts; I changed the course of my life on February 14,1995 and officially ended the relationship with my ex-fiance and best friend Nate. It was late 2007 we later reconnected through the internet and facebook to have a heart to heart and transition the relationship in a whole new way as friendship with boundaries. At times it felt awkward for me because Nate had moved on, which I had encouraged him to do. Always trying to do the right thing can be hard but it is a challenge I continually strive for, no matter the pain it brings upon me; after all, I have God who has been providing for my wants and most importantly needs. I had carried very torn feelings about our situation and struggled with my loyalty and caring and also knowing how flawed I could be; wondering still, after all this time if I had made the right choices. It became more apparent that indeed I had when Nate finally married in April 2012. It was especially hard when the world seemed to be operating at a very different standard than mine; so naturally I questioned if what I felt in my heart was realistic? Nate and I had so much in common but…….. initially when I was with him, the relationship brought out all these negative issues; insecurity,jealousy which were obviously not reflective of God. Maybe it was just my age? Or maybe it was Satan’s ploy to break the bond we had? I don’t know but, I also know that Nate had some habits that I was not comfortable with at the time; very controlling and things that touched my core, although, he was patient and tender with me in the beginning and to this day I know there is respect between us despite any mistakes on our part. Maybe we were too similar and we were so young? Anyway I guess those details don’t really matter. Time tells all stories and ironically 20 years to the date February 14, 2015 I saw a movie that I connected to. It touched me in a surreal way and lifted this burden of uncertainty I had carried for 20 years. It sure felt like divine timing and healing in some aspects. The movie “Old Fashioned” in some ways told my story through Clay in 2 ways: 1. Clay (from past) was the type of guy that I always seemed involved with during my high school and college days, as a result of being a cheerleader and pretty by many guys standards. Clay was symbolic of those who used and damaged me. 2) Clay in present day film had reflected the way I had become trying very hard to protect myself from ever becoming used again. The only thing that bothered me was the line Aunt Zella used “using the grace of God as a brick wall” I wasn’t, I don’t think? Was I rigid? Guilty, I stopped dating in 2004 because I could not stand the thought of being violated ever again! However, there was no pride involved in it, just protection. Either way the movie was some how therapeutic and helped me work out feelings of isolation and helped free my soul. Knowing I wasn’t alone in my standards and from that movie outreach finding real people who were living it with me has helped me find peace and hope; as if there could be something more? It is something I definitely lost along the way with my virginity. LOL I guess I feel I somehow regained my self worth and control again in some very mysterious way?
Engaged Pensacola, Fl July 1993

Engaged Pensacola, Fl July 1993

My Tribute

I realize I am known for my independence and it is a goal I seek on a regular basis, however, I am not independent from God and I am not an island! My brother recently brought up his concern for my health situation and my need for family. I’m not exactly sure what his point was but I started reflecting on ALL the ways God has always met my needs in times of struggle and all the amazing individuals that God has brought into my life that define my success and strength. So I guess I just want to take the opportunity to share and celebrate my amazing people that are God’s hands and feet! It starts with Sharon who in late February 2000 drove me into one of my first appointments @Loyola Medicine for a pulmonary function test. Then there has been Marcy who arranged her schedule around her family to take me into Loyola for a Dr. appointment or infusion, can’t really remember the specifics; just that she was there for me ( I think 2007′)  My uncle Mark G delivered me to Rush Presbyterian to see my Neurologist/Opthamologist referral for the first time, when I was afflicted with optic neuritis during summer of 2007. He later ended up traveling to Rush with me to take me home and another time for regular infusions I was having. He has also taken me home after hospitalization a couple of episodes at Loyola too. I cannot forget Donna, who offered and picked me up in Rochelle to drive me into Rush for a follow-up appointment that I had shortly after my initial visit. Kathie who I worked with, later drove me into Loyola for one of my regular infusions, oh…. and by the way, the infusions took around 4 hours. Then there is Molly who drove on a road trip to Springfield for a hematology appointment, 2011 maybe? Heather who has changed the dressing for about a week after each of my percutaneous nephrolithotomy’. Not to mention trimming trees when I have been ill, while her husband Jay has taken care of my lawn mowing for the last 4 years. John repaired my grape arbor a couple years ago. The list just goes on and on………… My mother of course has been the VIP of all my 10+ surgeries over the last 20 years and then some; that could be a full time job, LOL ( a trip to Mayo Clinic ) It has come in handy that she is a nurse and so is my sister. Yes my brother has had the opportunity a few times to attend to ER duty @Loyola and most recently @OSF and even brought his now wife along for the ride to Loyola hematology. It’s a good thing he doesn’t mind traveling because I recall he made a trip to Springfield once for a hematology  appointment too. Then I can include the list of all my friends that provide soul/emotional support; the list is many! Mau,Betty,Sandra,Patty,Sue,Cindy,Veronica,Jennifer my food girl,Josh,Connie,Teresa, Christy, my mothers friends,etc. It blows my mind to think of the riches in relationships that I experience; it takes a village. LOL! I know many others that would not hesitate to be there in whatever way needed. I only hope that all my friends and family know that my desire is to be there for them in my unique ways; whether it be sugar for VBS, pepper, concerts,prayers,organizing or writing projects. I still am capable of many things at the right time; including working full time and giving 100%.

My mom used to play/sing the song “My Tribute” when I was younger and for some reason it has been playing in my head today and I think it was to prepare me for my present?

Words: How can I say thanks for the things You have done for me, Things so undeserved that You give to prove your Love for me. The voices of a million angels could not express my gratitude. But for now and ever all I’ll be, I owe it all to Thee.

To God….. Be the Glory…. To God…. Be the Glory…. To God…. Be the Glory….. for the things He has done!

Just let me live my life; let it be pleasing Lord to thee and shall I gain any praise Let it go to Calvary!

With His blood He has saved me, With His power He has raised me, To God Be the Glory!

What a perfect song for my existence!

Damage Control

KeepPeopleThe world is messy and filled with pain as I strive to be a rainbow depending on the rain.
Just when I feel as though I have made strides, someone enters in and disturbs my ride.
Almost a year ago I had posted the included photo and tagged several contacts on facebook to express my gratitude/appreciation for their influence in my life. One of those that I tagged had a close associate of his make a comment on my photo; The comment:
Liam Scheff (July 27, 2012): “Did you say, “give you a boner?” I didn’t see that there… Is that wrong… wrong to say” I felt his comment was mocking my sincerity and my response was to delete it with the message: “Hey, I didn’t like this comment. l could care less about boners! Show some repect! WOW!” He then responded, “it was a joke. You can delete it. A joke. playful joke. Delete it.” and to block me? Just recently I went to the Chicago Health Expo in hopes of finally meeting and thanking the contact that I had tagged in the picture. As my luck or lack there of would have it I ended up missing Robert but came face to face with his collegue Liam at their booth. I’m quite certain when my eyes landed on him and recognized him I looked like I had seen a ghost. Of course I didn’t say anything and went on about my business but it left me feeling such unresolve. Mind you I didn’t really know anything about Liam, other than he was a team member of Robert’s. Ever since the collide ( as I call it ) at the health expo, I almost became haunted by the feeling of contempt and animosity that obviously is involved with blocking a person. I must admit I don’t take much lightly in life that’s for sure! So being as inquisitive as I am I since have been trying to discover the enigma that was right before my eyes; seeing someone makes them real I guess? As I have found vast information available about Liam my intrigue and empathy had grown. I have discovered he has a brilliant mind and I was able to find understanding; also uncover the darkness that I was able to feel previously. So now I am just wondering to myself why? Why this stranger that violated my emotions initially, I have now formed a respect and compassion for despite his obvious darkness? Once again I can reference the Bible and the Heavenly Spirit for the reasons that are so much part of my nature. I can feel the Holy spirit that continues to move me.
Matthew 5:43-48New Living Translation (NLT)
Teaching about Love for Enemies

43 “You have heard the law that says, ‘Love your neighbor’[a] and hate your enemy. 44 But I say, love your enemies![b] Pray for those who persecute you! 45 In that way, you will be acting as true children of your Father in heaven. For he gives his sunlight to both the evil and the good, and he sends rain on the just and the unjust alike. 46 If you love only those who love you, what reward is there for that? Even corrupt tax collectors do that much. 47 If you are kind only to your friends,[c] how are you different from anyone else? Even pagans do that. 48 But you are to be perfect, even as your Father in heaven is perfect.